I sit here- in the dead of Texas summer- hoodie on with hood over my head, blanket across my legs, houseshoes on, a/c totally turned down, and I am freezing my ass off!! Doesn't make sense. Can only mean I am getting sick- or that I am sick already.
Fuckin great- just what I need after all the rest of the BS goin on in my life. I cannot afford to miss work for ANY reason, so I will have to go in there and fake it and hope no one notices my shivering or my flushed face.
I HAVE been wanting some time off, Goddess, but NOT like this!! Lol!!
Funny how life twists and turns, though, isn't it? The one you thought you wanted turns out not to be the one you truly wanted at all- the fight you thought lost turns into a victory- thinking your heart broken, you find it filled with more joy than you could possibly imagine. And all that thanks to one that seemed to wait patiently for you to come to your senses.
And through it all, that four-letter word [that really has more than four letters] hoovers like a pesky skeeter around your psyche:
Patience.
Ah, but we Irish don't really have that word in our vocabulary, do we? Goddess has to drum it into our heads like war drums before a battle! But in those stolen moments when we get it, we understand a little of Her purpose, a smidgen of Her wisdom.
*sigh* So tired. Probably will not stay up much longer- need to rest before the next battle. My body feels like it has been in a saddle for days.
So I go to sing- loud and strong as I always do when I feel awful. It helps sometimes- if I can raise my tempurature with my song, it helps break whatever fever I may have.
Warned y'all I'm a strange lot.
So, 'til next time, my minions.....
Blessed Be )O(