The Grand Julia Experiment is complete. Well almost. Now I start the REALLY long rendering process which leaves me unable to work in Apophysis until further notice. Basically, I get to sit here , twiddle thumbs and wait for the image to show up on my desktop for tweeks for about 5 or 6 hours... maybe more. YAY ME!
So what else is there really to do but ponder things?
I hate to think, it is like dreaming... there is a reason I don't sleep too much. And it is this...
I don't sleep well, and when I do I dream far too long. It is the same for thinking. To much for me...
At the moment I sit here and think about the way my world is at the moment. It is very colorful. This is good... but with the color comes chaos. And just because there is color and chaos, it does not by any means state that there is variety or excitement. Quite the opposite actually. I am a recluse. I create, I eat, I ponder.
I create for lack of more fulfilling things to do.
I am sick of retreating to my shop for artistic solitude.
I have always prided myself on the fact that I am independent and self fulfilling. I have come to terms with the fact that it is all bullshit!
Independence is relative. Lonliness, now that is what it REALLY is.
Fancy, sugar-coated ways to say LONELY.
Can anyone come up with anymore?
