Mandie's blog: "Poetry"

When i see you in my dreams, I know that your with me, i cant see why u left me, i cant understand why listen to the wind, life for me begins, listen to the rain, i know you have gone away, i can try to stop the pain, i feel so helpless, i know you are with me now, but i cant see, that you cant be listen to the wind life for me begins, listen to the rain i know your back again free me from these eternal tears, i cant forget you, all i see is pained memory of when we were listen to the wind, life for me will bring listen to the rain i feel no more pain shadows fade, i hear no tears, i have found peace, thankyou for all of the years that you have made listen to the wind, m life now will bring, listen to the rain, my tears will form again` echo's of your last goodbye, whispers in the shadows, i can now finally smile now that you have rest in peace listen to the wind, my new life now begins, listen to the rain, ill be with you one day, till then ill live, and our child ill give, memories and love, and smile above

where can i find you, are you there somewhere, can you feel my pain my fear and despair, I cant go on knowing that u lied every day ive screamed and every minute i cried cant you just listen to what ive gotta say, all i am asking is you come back again, somewhere you are there for me to find you, i will be the one who crys for you, when you hear my pleas will you listen, or will my tears continue to glisten every day i smile when i see my memories, every minute i cry when i think back on my life, did you really care for me where you really there or was i just another mistake, just some fucking strife somewhere i know you are waiting for me, ill be there in my dreams, smiling i know you deep down care just wish you where there, do you care

I lay there confused, battered and bruised, Tears in my eyes, they can't hear my cries, All they can see is a fucked up girl, But what they dont see, if she's going through hell Drink is an option yet she stays away, Maybe tomorrow just not today, so she walks in her bathroom and pulls out the blade, blood drips from her skin, this is today, Crying in pain she breaks out a grin, This is the end my new life begins, She can't seem to focus, she can't seem to hear, All of her friends and family near, They kneel down beside, hoping she's better, Thats when they notice the blood stained letter, I'm sorry to all i couldnt go through, This life i was living, it's what i had to do, I'll be smiling down, so please no more tears, Im happier now than i have been in years, You were there for me when you wanted to bother, But wat you didnt realise, i needed a mother, If you had just stopped all your drinking and been, Normal and loving my life would of seen, love and hope, but instead i am haunted, By all your pain, whilst u mocked and taunted so if any drunks who think drink is better, remember the words that were written in this letter, your family and friends are more than your booze,, just remember wat happens, its yur choice to choose

I sit on cherry tap all day, Wondering who im gonna rate, Is it a 5 or is it a ten, hit on rate then messeage send. Waiting for the dreaded score, i hope its 1 or more, Ohhh god, my stomach churns like hell, its a ten, whey hey i yell someone like me or is it them, just being nice, ill rate a ten, Ohh well so wat if its a 1 its only just a bit of fun so if u read this lil poem, then rate it 10 or ill b moaning, only joking, dont really care, although a 5 it just aint fair lollolololollol

Goodbye Category: Writing and Poetry Ill never be empty without you, And ill never want anything more, Ill be with you till the end of time, It is you that ill always adore. The way that you kiss im in heaven, And the way that u touch im in love, But i never thoight that u would break my heart, And this pain is just way to much. I always thought that u loved me, And i always though tat u cared, I wish u had told me before you broke, My heart i was not prepared. I cant go on like this, Im living our final kiss, My mind is full of pain and hurt, Smelling your perfume on that worn out shirt, Why would you leave me, im crying, i need to at least know why, God are you spo empty and so full of hate, That you cant even say a goodbye.

Ugly Why am i so ugly, Why am i a freak, No wonder i aint got no friends, Who'd wanna be with a geek. Relationships are all shit, Ill never get it right, Ill just sit here and live in fear, Every day and night. Browsing through the profiles, Shall i message now, But i cant press send, on message friend, Im 2 scared the'll right back ugly cow. So i sit and wonder why, God made such an abomination, Monsters in the closet, THats no hallucination They based the story on me, The ugliest bitch on earth, No wonder i have got no friends, I was just born fucked up at birth.

Im waiting here for you I scream out for you help, are you there, as i stare into My dreams i feel you with me, lying here, bare within my soul. And i dont belive your gone, i cant believe that youve gone, Bt i have to be strong, Im sorry but i cant, i lied. nananana im crying for you, nananana im dying for you nananana i cant go on nananana withuout im not strong. nananana enough without you here, i fear i cant go on Looking back in my memories, you were there and you cared for me, c everyday you said you loved me, But now your gone, ive got noting to look upon my life has ended, It cant be mended, My heart has been erased my mind has been replaced with nananana youve left me cold and nananana, youve gone without me, you always said, nananan youd be here for true, but im still waiting here for you

Trapped Traped in my own nightmare, No escape from this, falling into the darkness of my own insanity preying for my release, someone to rescue me but how can they when i stand invisible to them all, Only being seen by the ones who fell my pain, only a grain of sanity stands in the way of our freedom But the darkness is to strong, It holds us trapped within this dream, emitting rays of serene light own on our souls, we have to let go Or i fear for our minds will break, our souls he will take. And we will sit trapped in this empty shell forever, never to see the light again

I live my life I lived my life in shadows, never the sun in my face, i never seemed to care though, i figured that was my place, i cant control my feelings that i just cant hold i feel like im dead, part of me can see that i need to be free. but i rather just hide from all the pain its easier to run away i cant go on through all this, but i dont know how to be, another life i know there has to be waiting for me now i can see that i just wanna be free smilijng at the sun i know that ive won maybe not the way i should buti cant go on living through this fear of my days are ended here im happier now that i have gone through oll of this to help me through but please do not cry for me as i know that i have done wrong but this is why im saying sorry by my last written song goodbye to all i know i have hurt u all forgive me i love you i didnt mean to hurt you the pain would of just got worse i, ill always be inside your hearts and ill never let u go

Sacrafice peace turns to the mourninng cries of the souls, screaming torture that he has stole whispers in the night of the sacrafice pain and fear is what u can feel the everlasting devouring as he rips into the skin let the sacrifice begin he holds his head up high blood dripping from his deathly eyes what seemed like heaven is now but hell roting skin fear the smell severed bodies lie within his naked soul, forming the madness that we cant control, we cry out our sorrow and hope that tommorrow life may bring some hope our last chance in heaven, forgive our forsaken sins as we fall to your feet we bg of thee we plea to the god of love please take us above to your paradise we cannot be his parasites anymore feeding upon the blood of man, holding our memories in our hand we prey to thee we prey to he who brings our redemption