Raven's blog: "Poetry"

I dont Understand Why when it takes so little to be a nice person, so many are cruel and hurtful. I dont understand Why when it just so much easier and releaving to tell the truth people still fill the need to tell lies and hide things I dont understand Why if you love someone you cant just tell them and hope and pray they feel the same. I dont understand Why some people who have more than others feel the need to flaunt their wealth, but when it comes to helping someone they cant even lift a finger I dont understand Why we have the need to fight for things and let things get so out of hand til we forget the reason we were fighting in the first place. I dont understand Why when someone is sick all of a sudden people who havent come to visit them or even talked to them in years suddenly remember they have a friend I dont understand Why loving seems to be so hard, but hate and judgement come so easily Well these are just a few things I dont understand, and they are things that happen all too often in this world, it really makes you stop and think, shouldnt it be the other way around, or hey there is something wrong with this picture?

I watch you breathlessly as you walk by. You dont even see me and I want to cry. I wish I could get to know you. Wish you wanted to know me too. Could I finally tell someone how I feel inside? Could I finally reveal all the things I try to hide? Would anyone be able to except these feelings in me ? Or like everyone else would you just flee? I dont want to be alone anymore. Wanting to find the key to open that door. These feelings inside wont go away. Hopefully though love will find me one day. 8-17-07

I wonder why you always scream and yell. What you will say next I can never tell. Dont you see what this is doing to me inside? Everytime you talk I want to run and hide. I love you and always try to show. what am I doing wrong I want to know. All I want is things the way they used to be. When it still seemed like you loved me. 8-20-07

Locked up in my shell so tight. I try but i cant take flight. Sulking and keeping everything bottled up. Makes you seem like a sad pup. Dont you see what this is doing to you ? How much it hurts others when they see too? A cut to feel and one to be real. This is the only way i know how to deal. 8-17-07

I walk alone in the dark and cold. No one sees me, no soul to hold. Lonely is this endless night. twisting and turning losing my will to fight. When will daylight come to save me? How long before I am set free? I want to feel life's warm embrace. To feel the sunlight on my face. This black abyss has swallowed me whole. drifting in the depths of a neverending hole. Will I ever again find my way out? This is something I truly doubt. Written on 8-17-07

My heart is like a swirling tidal wave crashing on a deslolate shore. The days past by in agony that seems never ending. Life keeps throwing obsticales in my path that make me wish for death all the more. It seems like the more I pass the more that do come, making it like a staircase winding. So to this life I will take your tests, and pass them with out fail. Still the heart that beats inside feels cold and unbeating. Maybe some day you will let me out of this invisible jail. Or maybe that is just a dream so fleeting.

I wish I could tell you how I feel. Let you know that I think that what we have is real. Worried that you will not talk to me anymore if you find out. But when I see you all I want to do is shout. Tell you all these feelings I have inside. All the fears and worries I try to hide. Hoping you cant see it in my face. All I want is you and your sweet embrace. I tried to move on and go along as if everything was fine. Tried to stay away from crossing that line so hard to define. It seems that this is not so easy for me. I can only sit back and hope that one day you will see.

I think I am finally learning how to move on. Now I know I can live with you gone. Finally I realized that I dont need you. My life I can start a new. No longer do I wonder what you would do if you were here. I no longer have to worry about what you are thinking or fear. I hope you are happy where you are. Maybe one day you will figure out that you once held my moon and stars. I finally have that wind in my sail. If I ever see you again these thoughts I will tell you without fail. No better let you see with your own eyes. When someone who knows how to apprieciate me wins the prize. That day I know you will see. For I know there is a lot of good inside me.

Since i met you i cant stop thinking about you Wish i knew if you felt the same way too So scared to let you know how i feel cause what we had was supposed to be no big deal I wish I could get you out of my head Maybe then i could finally go to bed Still i know how things would go if i told you this I still cant stop thinking about the way you touch and kiss Still you probably already know Even if you do i still hope you dont go

I wish I could hold you when I go to sleep at night. Wish I could feel your arms wraped around and holding me tight. I want to see your smiling face. Wishing that you would take me out of this place. I just feel like im swept up in a desert wind. Waiting for the love that only you can send. I wish you would tell me what to do. I've tried but still want no one else but you.