piglet's blog: "poetry"

i drown in the thoughts of togetherness for us to be as one then i snap back into reality and realize.... whats done is done. i cannot hold you close to me cant keep you by my side i've finally come to terms with this although countless times i've cried. i do not want to push you away but i cannot keep you near for when i think of the love thats passed my eyes fill up with tears. i want nothing more then to have you back and to let my feelings show but its time for me to forget your love and let what once was.... go.

at first i felt like crying n begged GOD to dry my tearas. i sat and reminisced of all the good times through the years. i stare at him from across the room and block that i still carebut im still in love with the way he runs his fingers through his hair and when im sick of crying but i feel the same, i might stop feeling miserable and hand him the blame. he'll ask me why my friends still vibe and walk away, he'll have nothing more to say. i finally think its over and that this might be the end, but then my heart stops when i see him holding his new girlfriend and i force myself to realize that in time i will be okay and the feelings that i felt at first will slowly fade away.

your the meanin in my life, the gentleness and the strength, the promise of the sunrise that makes every moment new. your the meanin in my life, and the warmth, the light that fills my heart with every loving thought of you. your the meanin of my life through the changing seasons. your the destiny and purpose that i couldnt do without. your the meanin in my life, and i'll always be so greatful, for you've shown me, just by bein you, what love is all about.

the shooting star in the night, makes me wish with all my might. that i had you right here to kiss, for being with you would be a bliss. i wish that i could be with you now, but i have to get there and i dont know how. i want to keep you, for my love is true, and i want to spend my life with you. it is you who makes my sun shine bright, it is you who i always dream about at night. i wish that we would never part, for you are all that is in my heart.

dont promise me your heart, if im not the one for you. dont look into my eyes, if your not going to be true. dont take my hand, if your not going to stay. dont say im the one you want, if your just gonna walk away. dont make promises, you know you cannot keep. dont walk out of my dreams, .... i'd rather stay asleep.

the first time i laid eyes on you i knew you were the one. the one who made my life worth living the one who's work was never done. the first time i held you i knew you'd make me see, see the wonders of the world around the wonders of you and me. the first time i kissed you i knew you'd make me feel feel my world was spinning feel this dream was real. the first time i realized how i felt i had to catch my heart with a glove it was the first time i realized i was falling deeply in love with you.

how do you repair a heart thats broken? how do you heal the wounds? how do you ever trust another? how do you love so soon? you left me asking these questions, you left me alone to wonder: how could i know you'd leave me, and break the spell im under? we had a love like fairy tales- prince charming on one knee. i thought i was your cinderella, but i was too blind to see. the love you had came from another, someone im afraid to know. so now i hide within myself, so my pain-filled eyes wont show. you've made it hard to trust another, making sure no paths are crossed. since you never knew what you had, you'll never know now what you've lost! my heart was all for giving, but all you did was take. i know one day i'll love again, and learn from my mistakes.

i used to be known as a good girl and school was my only world but what happened to me the day you were gone. i was so lonely, i was depressed, and very sad thought 'why me?' and that made me mad becuz you made me blue. i only wanted you near so i took a gulp of that beer, shortly i felt no more pain, just heard my friends say 'your insane'; so everytime i feel my wound i'd get drunk and very soon all my heartache had disappeared and an image of you is here. you got me addicted now i cant stop cuz in my heart you still lay on top, i feel like i've won everytime i drink but all that happens is my face turns pink. so in the long run i still lost cuz thats what being with you had cost!

its so hard to say "i love you" and draw back in tears. its so hard to know your not there to help me face my fears. its so hard to know the phones at reach but i cant hear your voice. its so hard to know that this time breaking up was not my choice. its so hard to see you laughing when im crying deep inside. its so hard to just find feelings and now make them hide. its so hard to live without you when i need you more than words can say, to want to scream how much i love you but hold back and not be heard. its so hard going to sleep at night when i cant dream of you. its so hard to think that you might fall in love with someone new. its so hard to not start crying when i hear your favorite song. its so hard to sit and wonder, 'where did i go wrong?' its so hard to live without you. if only i had known, i will never love another, i'd rather be alone.

hold me tonight and never let me go, i want to melt in your arms, i love you so.for just one moment i dont want to feel lifes pain, i want to remember in life what i have gained. when you hold me in your arms all i feel is warmth. a soft golden touch and i am no longer torn. your magic and your love just lifts my life so i can feel protected for just one night. i know you cant be here all the time for me, dear, so just hold me for tonight so i have no fear; let me feel your love, give you my best, because you are so precious to me, and i want you to know i will treasure the moment and never let you go. Can i melt in your arms? will you hold me tight? take my hand, plz lead me to paradise tonight.