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What are you waiting for?
Everything Ive ever known
Falls into the unknown
Everyone Ive ever cared for
Slipped slowly through my fingertips
This lifeless embodyment that is considered
My body
Is no longer the same
Love was never an issue
Until I met the one who gave me life and hope
Hope has never been a word that was used to describe me
Becasue hope has never really been there
As I sit and watch my peers laugh and cuddle
With their boyfriends and girlfriends
I wonder
I wonder could things have been any different
I am wondering if I was put onto the earth
Just to make people see that world is not perfect
I never understood what it meant to love
Until it all fell distant
From the person I am now
From time to time someone comes into your life
You either fall in love
Or you dont
If its meant to be you fall quick
If not theres nothing there
Sometimes theres a wonderful friendship
Other Times theres not
I feel hurt
Except when im with you
Or even just thinking about you
I never thought this could happen
But it did
And Im glad
I hope for both of our sake
Neither of us gets hurt
Im too deep in this now
If you leave youll take my heart
And rip it out
I just hope the best now
Ive fallen hard
And dont want to let go
I sit wondering
Does he really care
I sit listening
To every word he says
Hearing every tone in his voice
Hearing the absolute end
In his voice
He tells me he loves me
He tells me how much he cares
I dont know how much
He is telling me is the truth
Through the alcohol
And the drugs Ive been there for him
Doesnt matter how hard I try
I cant do anything right
So I just try to figure
How to get away from him
Tired of being drug into a hole
Tired of my life going to hell
I sit wondering
If these words he says are true
I wonder
If he loves me like he says he does
Why did this happen
Why me
Why did he have to die
Why him
Why do they get to live
Why them
When people make mistakes
Why kill
When people are corrupted
Why lie
When people love
Why die
When people die
Why love
Why did this happen
Why me
What do you see when you look into my eyes?
Are they the eyes of an angel,
Or the eyes of a demon.
What do you see when you look at my face?
Is it the face of the one you love,
Or the face of the one you love to hate?
What do you think of when you hear my voice?
Is it one of comfort,
Or one of anguish?
What comes to mind when you think of me?
This is the girl I love,
Or the one I want dead?
What crosses you mind when I walk in the room?
Am I the one you want to spend the rest of your life with,
Or the one you want to forget?
caught between heaven and hell not knowing whats next will i be wrapped up in your arms or be caught out in the cold? will i be lying next to you or sleeping on the floor surrounded by blood?will you be mine or will someone else claim you for their own? Will i hear your voice gently saying i love you or will i hear the screams in my own head saying you are nothing. Will i get to wake up next to you or lay in the dark forever? will you love me forever or will you push me away again knowing im the right one? Will you show me the light or leave me in the shadows. Will you take my innocents or or will you leave me alone.
