The Token Asian Owned by anticheebusHati...'s blog: "POETRY"

I was looking thru my old blog and saw my old poetry. I haven't written anything in a long while. I just thought I would share these and leave them open for criticism and what have you. I hope all who read them enjoy them...and yes, I was a little emo for a while there...lol...it's what happens when you're lonely...

Written on 5/29/2006 Forsaken by my God Unparallelled emptiness Longing only for the touch of His robe I cry out for mercy I cry out for forgiveness I repent my impurities He takes me in His arms and I am fulfilled once again My cup overfloweth His Spirit withing my being The beauty of His light in my eyes A life new and changed again Renewal and happiness return Constantly I fall harder and farther each time Turning my back to and heart away from God Resenting Him for choices I'VE made And reaping only consequences I DESERVE You are a merciful God Forgiving God Beautiful God MY GOD

Written on 5/29/2006 The insanity never stopping. My mind tripped out on adrenaline alone. Can't make it stop no matter how hard I try. Creativity flowing from my pen. Transforming blank sheets into masterpieces. The beauty only known to few. Hidden and locked in my mind's eye. Only feeling. Never knowing. Constantly unconsious verses. Treasures of the mind never revealed. Until moments of unbridled pain. And of nonstop motions of brainwaves.

Written on 3/8/2006 For those of you who are waiting for that right "someone" to come along/back: One day you'll see All that could have been and long for something more. You'll see the time spent And remember shared moments And you will treasure all Desires running deep to run to my embrace And remember the feeling Once again. You'll see how this life was meant to be. One day you'll see. You try to ignore Hide emotions inside But you can't deny the feelings controlling your senses consuming your mind. You push me away Try to push me aside. Frustration begins because you just can't... ...can't see life without me. My absence from you kills from the inside. Deepest cut made from a friendship severed. A void in your heart left by my absence. You search & search But there are none like me. Come back & realize the happiness that awaits.

Written on 3/8/2006 This one is for the broken hearted: No words to form my heart's break. The harder I try My mind draws more blank. An empty canvas For imagination to run wild. Painting pictures of what should have been. Beautiful friendship Unshaken by any. A bond formed between you and I. Levels of understanding Incomparable to all. Compassion unsurmountable my being carries for you. And all I can do is HURT.

Written on 3/8/2006 For those who love unconditionally and get hurt by those closest to you...this one is for you: Depression is an ugly thing. Burdening my spirit to discontent. Malevolence burns through my blood Boiling all nerves inside me. First, sadness Then, madness One after the other each set in. Taking away from spirit and balance. Emotions on my sleeve For all to see My broken heart revealed.

Written on 3/8/2006 This one if for the "My Best Friend's Wedding" syndrome type people... This feeling inside. Consuming my life. My eyes blind to the affections of another. He woos me, Romances me. Yet nothing in my heart is for him. I am numb to all, to fear, to the comfort of embrace, to you and your advances. My heard torn to pieces So long ago. Every day mended more & more. Resorting to meaningless carnal desires. Never giving me to anyone. Everyone robbed of who I really am. No longer myself. Not from that day on. ...but worry not...there is hope at the end of every day...

Written on 3/8/2006 Can't stop the ache How much can I take? This time invested Knowing you like no other My soul yearns for your affection My heart shattered by your mistakes Yet I will remain Enamored by you And I will wait. Your heart stays with me And does not stray You see me in whispers And hear me in visions of beautiful memories. I haunt your dreams As I wait for you. Every bend I turn Remnants of you I see The kiss of the sun warm on my face As your lips Ecstacy and elation rises within my senses And back to earth I collide With the truths of you and another And still I wait. You make your choices You give your heart tenderly She takes it away Greed in her eyes Breaking pieces slowly off Pieces you trusted in her hands And slowly you turn To me And I continue to wait. The affections earned The trust instilled Relations formed Step by step Finally I move In the direction of your open arms Apologies accepted and set aside And I wait for you No longer.

Written on 3/3/2006 It's hard to cope with this pain. Nothing is same. Spill my heart out on this window sill. You feel one way, but act another. You see things one way, but never say what's really on your mind. The ache inside, makes me realize the depth of feelings I have. It's been so long, never thought this feeling would come again. Scared these days will be gone too soon along with them my heart. Lost friends and family These days will never be the same. The reflection of self and of time wasted away. My heart will survive this storm called Life.

Written on 10/17/2005 A time for healing has come and gone now is the time for the future History will not repeat I will not give in Strength and faith hold me up containing my fears and doubts Preparing me for what is in store They break my heart piece by piece Yet, He helps me restore everything that was thought to be lost I find renewal in faith Courage in hope My soul is not lost My heart no longer empty The longing for companionship has returned I fear no longer I trust again My faith carries me from one wake to another Each bigger than the one before it yet my steps fall simply and easily with every progression Not by my own strength have I accomplished these things I stand by my faith Firmly on the pillars of my soul My faith in men has been restored. Again I am ready for him To come into my life To form a partnership not becoming a knight in armor ready for battle I am a damzel no longer There is a strength now forged within my being I stand by myself with a void beside me Waiting for it to be filled But my faith carries me until that day