Dark Pixie's blog: "Poetry"

Where the Angel Flies Subtle thoughts and cold lips watching the warmth leaving your body as we kiss Dead leaves fall on what was once a warm embrace Tears roll down my cheeks, lips, and face I release your hand and close my eyes Hoping that you are where the Angel flies Sitting alone the cold, dank, dark Fighting away the demons, devils, and larks They sing for you and what you have done For the terrible creature you have become I fight for you with every last dying breathe Because I know there is good in you, so my soul will not rest I cling to you with crying eyes Because I know you are not where the Angel flies I cannot back down, and I cannot let go To see you lie there listless, my blood will flow With pain in my heart, I beg the gods to hear my cries Take me where the Angel flies Let me show them, and make them see Exactly what you mean to me So that they know how much you did sacrifice And that this terrible turn of events was just a roll of the dice That you have for the falsehoods, rumors, and lies But that you truly belong where the Angel flies Whispering, “I love you my Knight” while placing your head softly to the ground With anguish yells, I slam my fists with a pound Anger swells and my blood begins to boil For you were so blinded by others, to see my turmoil And now you are gone, and never could realize That I am the Angel that flies I see your corruption, misdeeds, and lies And this is why you have fallen from where this Angel flies But I still love you, and I know you do by your eyes So when you are ready, come back to where Dark Angel flies

Following through There are things everyone says There are things that everyone do Every time I hear your voice I wonder if you follow through I promise I will do better I promise I will care I hear the waiver in your tone And I know you might not follow through The way you touch me is the same And even how you hold my hand How do you expect me to trust When you say you will follow through Your words don’t mean the same to me Nor does the feeling from your heart Because I have been through it all before When I thought you were following through The night is almost over And you say you will be always here But I see you leave my door And I see you following through The way you used to be And the light that used to shine Now my halls are dark and my hand is empty Because you followed through The old paths that you take And the new ones coming up How can you say you want me If I know you wont follow me through Every road is sought with anger Every touch I feel is pain I don’t need you next to me If I cant have you follow through The tears are quiet now And silence is deafening around Because I know that I love you But I know my heart is through following you

Time Stops While Loving You Soft breathes on skin of warm loving embodiment. Quiet whispers of love and life being exchanged between you and I Intertwining bodies as hearts become one on red satin sheets Love is fleeting as the daylight comes up through the crimson drapes Time stops as loving you draws to an end The heat rises as your mouth and mine become one As your body thrusts into mine, filling my body with a pleasure I could never feel again You make me quiver with every ebb and flow of your body’s movements Sweet birds begin to tell that this will not last forever Time stops as loving you draws to an end You grab my hand as we both know that this passion is coming to an end Throbbing of your body penetrates deep inside to the point I cant hold back my moans Quickening of breathes arise as you squeeze and taste my breasts Sobering life of the outside and sounds of life begin to enter through the window Time stops as loving you draws to an end Numbness crawls over my body as this copulation comes full circle Everything around us turns black only to the point where you and I are the only ones Sensations fill my body as I let out the ecstasy that you placed deep within me The sounds from the rest of the world come back in full force demanding its time to meet them But I will always know that loving you has come to an end when the time we spent stood still

Thoughts of Life I sit and watch and think about what has gone on in this world today, I wonder if it should really be like this. Should there be hate and tyranny and destruction, Or should all of this just be positive production? I like to think that it was fun while it lasted, Before i was mained and my name be casted, Out unto the sea that is black as night, Out unto the sea that is filled with strive. One that makes the world go round, But one that shall bring you to the ground. I tell you now that the earth is rich and full, Just as long as you keep your cool. So next time you sit and wonder, Think about your life while you ponder.

What I will bare… You say I don’t listen, You say I’m a mess… You say you love another, Yet my lips you still caress… To only feel the pain I feel inside… You would run forever and always would hide… My heart is ripped open for everyone to stare… But it is not you or them that has this pain to bare… I love you alone and listen I do… But it is not my ears you turn to, it is your crew… Of child like minds and inexperienced thoughts… They fill you head with can’ts and won’ts and do nots… “She can’t understand,” and “She won’t care how you feel”… “Do not listen to her, for she will never kneel”… They cloud your mind and heart like never before… They send you running straight for the door… They do not know, and I hope they never understand… How much I would give up for you, just to hold your hand… I would give up this world and give up this life… I would fall on any sword, dagger, or knife… To see your sweet face, and kiss your sweet kiss… To leave everything I love dearly and would sorely miss… To be with you in a less crowed place… And die with you alone with your kiss on my face… I love you forever and surely they will not… To know how it feels to die on this spot… Just for love and tender kind care… For you are my prince and this pain I will bare…

Our Secret Holding hands in the very late night Kissing each other with tender care Hiding our love from everyone in sight Even though you are far away, I stop and stare At the beauty that is you in every way Sadly you haven’t been gone for very long And everyone seems to have something to say But all I can do is remember our song I will tell you, yes, I do fight back the tears and pain Only it is killing me inside to not say and do Killing ourselves with all the stress and strain Believe me when I say, no matter what happens I will always love you

have you ever felt like you were trapped in a box and there was nothing to do you had no where to call your own you didnt even have your own space cause you felt like you werent allowed to have it??? have you ever understood what it was like when you stared into the glass where you used to trap bugs to watch them... i dont mean like understood the bugs but what the bugs must have felt like being watched and never allowed the privilege of being let free that one last time to breathe the air that gave them life??? have you ever felt like you were wearing clothes that were way too tight and you couldnt breathe right all you felt like you were doing was breathing in but not able to breathe out... just the realize what you were wearing wasnt even tight to begin with??? have you ever understood the meaning of life one day and then hit your head and forget it all over again??? have you ever seen something very simple be so beautiful just to turn around to see it destroyed in front of you??? have you ever tried to get some peace and quiet just to see it all turn into something that will keep your ears ringing for the next three days??? have you ever shed tears just to realize that you were crying for yourself??? have you ever thought that you would do anything for someone just to find out that they would do anything to not be with you??? have you ever held someone till the late hours of the night just to wake to them not being there???? have you ever understood everything but couldnt explain anything???? have you ever wished that  you would go deaf just so you couldnt hear the screams of your own thoughts? have you ever thought of me and wondered why???? have you ever wondered why all i do is scream inside from my own thoughts??? have you ever wondered why you could tell me anything and i understood cause i have been there at least once before??? have you ever woken up and thought hey maybe i will stay here with her??? have you ever thought that the reason i would do anything for you even though you arent there for me sometimes is because i know you need me when you want me??? have you ever realized that is why i cry??? have you ever wondered why i leave by myself once a year??? have you ever wondered why i worship what you do say and create??? have you ever wondered why i stare deep into your eyes all the time??? have you ever wondered why i hate being in love or care so deeply for you??? have you ever understood why i always hated being thought of as "one of the OTHER girls"? have you ever wondered why i shut the door and put on head phones and cry and hope yall wont come in just to turn everything i just did upside down???? have you ever wondered if this is the reason why i write poetry???

The Rose Pretty flowers in rows amongst gardens… They cling to life as the grounds hardens… Beautiful roses and subtle hands… Shivering petals from your touch not knowing where your fingers land… You hand weaves around blood red and yellow roses… Plucking the only black one, as it melts in your hand like osmosis… Gazing upon its lovely and strange self… Warm embrace and soft caress is what you felt… Sweet smell and light embrace… As you pull the rose and caress your face… Sweet returns as the rose feels your skin… Throbbing from the rose’s heart that pulses from within… Simple pleasures from a loving embrace… And enormous passion and flourishment that the rose felt upon that face… Fear strikes as the rose is pulled away… No more warm caress and soft embrace here to stay… The rose slips from the fallen hand with all its might… And hit’s the ground and away from his sight… Shivering petals and dying heart throbs… As you move on to prettier roses and ignore this loving black rose’s dying sobs.

The Fallen Spoils of war and love being lost… Not Caring how others feel, but they pay the cost… Moments are gone and tears are thrown aside… For you are my husband and I you listless bride… Sorrows of fallen and hurt feelings arise… Hearts lie slaughtered and all that’s left is the cries… Of painful remembrance of what was once there… For the hunter has turned once his prey lie bare… Of open soul and heart for all to see… That you are gone and I am fallen, and was the one who paid the fee…

What about me? What About Me???? Every one wants to know. My Life ebbs and my life flows. I see things through the eyes of the tortured souls. Because that where I was long ago. I saw the pain and fear in my mothers eyes. Let alone the Tell Tale lies. My father beat us and my mother cried. I got stronger and my mother went to hide. They got divorced and she married another. We allowed him to beat on us but then he turned to my brother. He is so frail, but strong inside. My fury burned and I let my fists ride. Like rockets burning as fast as that speed of light. I knew then this would not be the last fight. He'd get drunk and make a mess. I'd get my family out with their looks of hopelessness. He is know pissed, for he has no punching bags to hit. He turned to me with his eyes on fire, just freshly lit. I fought him every time. As we did this I knew the cops were going to arrive. It is pretty sad when the local cops know you by name. They know every thing about you and exactly whose to blame. It's not the dad, and its not the mom, it's whatever they were drinking in the bottle or the jar. It's late in the evening and I have to wake up soon. I haven't slept at all and my clothes still stink. Of the shit my "father" likes to drink. But I know tonight was a good night, because my brother and my mother can still see the light.