Dj TeAsEandToRmEnT's blog: "poetry some new some old .. all mine"

Would you let me be your guide dog, if you happened to go blind. Can you let me be your light, when you feel left in the dark. I'll try to be your sunrise, when the night drags on. I want to be your faith, when for you life holds no hope. I would be your map, for when you feel lost or alone can I be your steady rock in this unpredictable life Do you trust me enough to let me be your shining knight.?

I'm as dark as night As light as day. Magic and love are not far away. I'm the queen of hearts and the owner of hell, Learn to love,care and hate, Learn to give share and take May you trust and be trusted

I need friendship, love, security, to feel loved and love in return, a listener, a friend, a soul mate. to feel needed and wanted to be part of somebody, not to feel like an outcast that every one hates. I WANT TO BELONG !! I read about it, think about it, dream about it, I want it, but its something I cant have, if only's running through my mind what ifs, why, how come, why not? hurt, scared, emotional turmoil. WHY?

hate somthing i have never felt,for others, had it felt for me. taunted,teased, can never please, the others. like them ill never be. all alone the pain inside to sronge for me to take. i break. my mind. my heart. my soul. shatterd a thousand splinters can never be repaired. heart achs soul rape

Walking down the street I see a woman that is a child, She smiles at me so confident, so unashamed, She turns the corner her shoulders droop, Her head hangs low, her arms are crossed. Afraid. Scared. Lonely. Her silent tears which no one see, A world of sadness shown to me, The outside woman the inner child A fake facade to please her peers.

The tears i've cried for you my dear, Are ones of pain, and ones of fear. The pain of knowing That someone dear, Over some one else Has shed a tear. The fear in the knowledge, That you still love another, And that maybe I could never be Your significant other. Though love is what takes over and makes me forget Any fears Any pain And any regrets

when the pain becomes so great and all you have is yesterdays when the anger is so strong your afaid for people near when the frear is all consuming you forget whats good in your life when sadness is like a cloudy day hiding the brightness of living life when your lost and empty.. then i see you... and I remember that your there, I'm not alone and someone cares. I remember your vows and your love it keeps me safe keeps me alive keeps me bound to you..

walls crumble, heart breaks, soul aches, hate me use me dont excuse me. call me, break me, make me cry. but dont dont be kind dont feel sorry dont pitty me its more than i can take

In the all consuming darkness of my mind I search my soul no answers can i find what is the meaning of me what is the point of my life i cry alone ashamed i bleed the razor cuts only so deep help me im tired of this, this mess called life i want out but carnt do it myself no guts to scared to hurt the others ill just hurt myself...

fuck you fuck all who ever knew me and did nothing. fuck the life that people taunt me with. fuck the life that i hate. how dare you critize me for having feelings. well at least i dare to feel. how can you live with with no emotion except the hate you feel for me. whats wrong with you? carnt you see im just like you? just wanna be left alone.... need room inbetween your mindless tendences to make others feel lower than your self. where will you be in 10 years? alone, numb, afraid. im better than you, not because im smarter, or have a better home, because i know how it feels to dare to love and risk every morsel of hope and lose it, and have courage to try to find it once again, i dare to live.