I'm Not Your Relationship Jesus
An essay from me to "her"
When you look at me...who do you see? Is it "him"...whoever "him" is...or is it me? Even your angry ass has to admit that only one man has been perfect. Only ONE....gets a capital "H" when you spell Him. So why do I have to die for your and "his" sins?
That's right.....yours and his!!! Guilty as charged!!! Both of y'all sitting in the same class. His punk ass ain't no good but YOU chose his ass. The signs were obvious like heat on a hot summer day. Red flags waving all over the place yet YOU somehow managed to be looking the other way.
I'm not out there with my dick in my hand like some common whore. I'm not using your money or your cards fuckin' up yo' credit score. I always have and I always will.....get it STRAIGHT.... .I OWN my own place. I'm not in anyone's basement or trying to move into your space. Forgive me cause maybe I should feel sorry but although I might feel familiar you didn't see me on Maury or any of those shows. I only date strong women....I don't date hoes.
Why I gotta be cheap cause I don't spend on you from my bottomless pit of money. Keep on smiling...cause only you and your girls think it's funny. YOU chose his "no job having " ass. Every time it was his turn to pay YOU gave him a pass. He fucked up YOUR lease driving the shit out of your ride. He fucked up YOUR insurance with those mysterious scratches down the side. YOU fucked YOURSELF investing in him over your retirement's health. YOU fucked YOURSELF royally putting up with his stress over valuing your mental health.
Don't get it twisted!! That knock at the door is just me not some bytch I was cheating with coming to cuss me out. Don't get it twisted!! I can disagree with you without having to shove or shout. DO NOT get it twisted!!! I'm not weak cause I haven't knocked your ass flat. I was raised by a man to be a man and I know that real men don't act or react like that.
Riddle me this Batgirl...how do I NOT have your back?!!? Why is it with me you don't feel safe? Maybe cause with me you're not being virtually raped. Hmmmm, "he" had other women coming at you...coming to your crib...talking bout how many times she felt his dick up in her ribs...talking bout how he leaves yours to come to her bed....talking bout how he loves her, not you, cause her head is the BOMB!!! I didn't do anything like that!!! Yet "he"...exposing you to AIDS and all that......"he" had your back.
I wouldn't dare ask for more than I was capable or willing to give. I tried to create a happy, loving space for both of us to live. I'm truly sorry that your youth was so tough...but I'M NOT YOUR FATHER. I'm not that last idiot you titled yet you still bother to fine me...to tax me....to subject me to your whims. Somehow in your mind I have to pay for their sins. Well, maybe I'm just crazy for the way I think. I didn't think it was all about you...nor me. I thought it was about pleasing us. Well, selfish is as selfish does....and I can't be your Relationship Jesus.
ReubZilla
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