Predictably Unpredictable's blog: "Poetry and what not"

Caress my heart Before you rip it out Nurse my addiction Ease my pain Life teeters Sways in your breeze Fall to my knees Taste the rain Death beckons Stares silently Seductive eyes Penetrate my brain Love is a cycle Pick me up Let me fall No longer sane

I'm trying to find the reason, Why this world's so cold. The mask I throw on daily, Is beginning to grow old. I've hid my face for far too long, I fear it might be lost. I want to end the sadness, No matter what the cost. I'm hanging by a single thread, Should I cut the strand? Would my pain finally end, If my death came from my hands? Would it be a help at all, Or counted as a loss? My head spins til it comes undone, My brain's forever tossed. So I crawl back in my hole, Never more to roam. Waiting for someone to love, To come and take me home.

I sit in darkness, Missing you, Wanting you. I'm haunted by your face. The softness of your kiss, Still remains on my lips. The falsehood of our love, A knife in my heart. The falling away, A knife in my back. The blood from these wounds, Flowing as tears from my eyes. The memory of you, And the thought of loss, Brings unending pain to my soul. So I turn my back to you, To dwell in the shadows, And bleed my sorrow away.

Can this love Be strong enough To abolish hate? And the fire That burns inside Will your touch sedate? And when I see you standing there Perfect face, perfect hair I love you more, become aware To be with you is fate But now I see As it goes You've fallen away The pain is building Longing grows Why won't you stay? I know I'm nothing, I'm not gifted I lie in wait, my hurt not lifted And my whole self, on you I've shifted But you push me away

One look in your eyes, My whole world crumbles. Fall to my knees and I beg. Pray to an unknown god, Some higher force, That can place you in my arms. Sit in wait, Cannot make my move. Fear the sadistic games, The puppetmaster always plays. I chemically induce sleep, Just to hold you. Want to dream forever, Never let you go. How can it be? You're closest to me, When I'm farthest away. But standing beside me, We're lightyears apart. I just want to feel, How I feel in my dreams. Holding you close, With nothing between.

I took this time To clear my mind With this tool of destruction and death So I spray it all Against the wall And breathe my final breath But before I'm away I smoke the pain And choke as it slides down Then I lie in death Emotionless Not a smile nor a frown And now I die But don't you cry And if you must, be brief I won't let you Let what I do Bring you any grief Tell my mother Tell my brother Tell them not to fret And just one wish Please grant me this I want you to forget... ...Me