INXS421's blog: "Poetry and Thoughts"

From the first moment I laid eyes upon you my heart felt a tug, A pull from something deep in the past or perhaps another life. Each passing day it seemed to grow stronger, Drawing something hidden deep for so long. Cracks forming in walls kept strong and thick, Protecting a spark I felt never would grow. My soul had been a cold and dark place, Insulating that which I was afraid to show. I had resigned myself to walk a path that was chosen for me, To walk it resolutely, steadily into what I did not know. How can it be, this thing that has come to pass so quickly. Passions flames filling a place purposely kept cold. It was the only way I felt i could face the road I could see before me, The only way to travel a trail few can and keep their head held high. Then a pair of shining eyes and a glowing smile walked into my life, Drawing feelings from me that I forgot I had. Know this My Dear One, I will always thank you for showing me that I never did forget. Written by INXS421 03/29/08

How I miss you is hard to comprehend, There are times the pain is so great, Fore we are so very far away. I fell in love with you from our first meeting, This is something I have shared with you, But do you know just how much. I know I wear my emotions for you to see, I am not afraid of letting them show, How else can you know the depth of them. Perhaps they can be smothering at times, Though they are not meant to be, I just want you to know exactly how I feel. No guess work, no wondering, Facts and details of these feelings within, You have brought to life things long dormant. For that and so many others things I am grateful, You mean the world and more to me, I would cross any ocean, climb any mountain to see you happy. You have shown me a love that I thought would never be mine, Years of loneliness erased from our first hug, our first kiss, How full of happiness and joy my life has become. Our time of togetherness will soon approach, Once it is here so much of the strangeness of what is now will be released, I can only hope that we will sit back and laugh at how things are now. Sitting together as friends and lovers, Enjoying each passing day, Feeling more deeply This Love We Share. Written by INXS421 10/07/07

There are times when the days pass slowly, Sitting here looking forward to our next visit. I sit in amazement at how my feelings have grown, From our beginning conversations to today. You have grown to fill a place in my heart, It was a place that had been empty for so long. Now it is filled with a joy and peace, That had been missing for a long time. A feeling of having a friend to share living with, This is something I thought would never be mine. Soon more chances to be companions will be here, No more to wonder at when we will get chances to be together. Do you have any idea at how much I look forward to it, It will mean that I have my Best Friend near. For you have become that to me Honey, Thank you for all that you are. By INXS421 05/28/07

I have this friend, who lives far away, She has been the inspiration to me in so many ways. Her throaty laugh coming over the phone line, It brightens my day in so many ways. Listening to her voice as she shares the events of her day, I sit here and smile wondering if she knows how I truly enjoy these times. Every time we have held each other tight, looking into each others eyes, I feel the dark times of my past retreat farther into nothingness. Since the day we first met and shared so much, This friend of mine has become the most important person in my life. There are those who may say that no one can become friends the way we have, This I can tell them from this very real experience. My friend who lives so very far away, Has become My Best Friend and for that I will always love her. By INXS421 05/11/07

A walk on the beach, sounds of waves caressing the shore, The one I long for, too far away to enjoy this with me. The smell of the salt air floating on the breeze, 900 miles away she is, missing her at times like this. Watching couples walk along the sand hand in hand, Reaching out but her hand is not there. Enviously I look at them, alone here on the dark shore, Listening to the soft murmuring of their voices blending with the night. One I care for very deeply is so far away right now, One day she will take this walk with me, Along a Dark Shore. By INXS421 04/29/07

I know my heart had formed a shell, To protect itself from this worlds hell. A hardened heart, armored from pain, Steeled to the core, sheltered from the rain. Then a day came along, much to my surprise, Witty chat, long talks and bright blue eyes. This shell is weakening though I know not why, I have been through so much pain to let it reach for the sky. Now it has begun to soar where only eagles dare tread, This heart of mine that was once so cold, heartache has fled. Those shining eyes and warm soft skin, Have made me believe in love again. If I only have this one chance to let her know one thing, You have brought the joy of living back to me again. Know now and for all time this one simple truth, It is because of you My Dear, That I have learned to fly Where Only Eagles Dare. By INXS421 04/21/07

I have this vision, Of a White Dove flying. She looks so carefree and happy, Soaring through a beautiful blue sky. Twice now she has flown into my arms, Only to soar away again. I am envious of those who may have her fly to them, For I am so far away to be there when she needs me. I hope they know what a treasure she is, To treat her with the love and respect that I have shown her. The great love that is in her heart, Shines brightly through her loving eyes. Eyes that have seen so much pain, They have shined brilliantly as she has lain in my arms. I have seen the love deep within her soul, It is a wonder to behold. I have heard her pain when she has been hurt deeply, Heart torn apart by the distance that separates us. Those are the times she needs my arms around her, Though all I am able to do is sit here and express my love. To all that have been blessed to know her, This world would not be the same with out this White Dove that I love. by INXS421 04/17/07

There is this place within us all, That is capable of such love and happiness. For some, it is a dark and lonely place, Where the light never shines. For others, it is such a bright place, Blinding the soul with such intensity. Those who only know the darkness, Miss out on more than they can ever know. This I know, for I was one of those who dwelt in the dark, Missing out on what the light has to offer. No more that dark place, Banished once and for all. The light is now all that I see, Burning my soul with such passion. For when she came into my life, Just being my friend, a beam of light cut through the darkness. Now that dark place burns ever so bright, With a love and friendship that I never thought could be mine. The only thing that I want her to know, That she has brought my soul to life with her love for me. All that I am now, the happiness and joy of living, Has all come from the first little beam of light. by INXS421 04/11/07

When I look into your eyes, My heart soars so high. When you flash me those loving smiles, I forget all 900 miles. When you hold me in your arms so tight, I know the world has been made right. Waking up to the feeling of your warm body next to mine, Those are memories I will treasure for all time. This I know was true, Before I met you, my dreams were so blue. Do you know the effect you have had on me? byINXS421 03/30/07

There she stands, Her eyes shining blue. A smile to melt all the ice, From a frozen soul. A warm hand to hold mine, Walking through the days. Arms to hold her, When her days are blue. She will always mean the world to me, A treasure to keep safe for all time. Words are so meaningless, When we have so much more to say. Showing her your love, Is a much better way. By INXS421 04/15/07