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I'm tired of you

I'm tired of you How do you respond to that? Family is supposed to have your back But no matter how far I back track I can't justify her saying those words to me. From my brother...maybe cuz since he was a baby he's been in my shadow following in my foosteps and when he didn't, it was deemed failure? just cuz he didn't follow in my success? Shit...years down the road and I'm still struggling Consumed by all this mess Stressing over what is to some... Life's simple tests and it's so hard to do my best when I'm still focused on regrets. So it seems that I have gone astray, I'm off the path and lost the way... I'm not the picture perfect son but am i supposed to act it out? is this a play? Let's check the reviews... Brother says "I'm ashamed that he's my kin and even worse...he don't act black and when I stepped out in mess and in the streets that damned fool didn't have my back" There's obvious resentment just cuz I picked a different path but in the grand equation of life.... I'm still struggling with the math Father says "I can't believe you're mine You look like me and think that cuz you help others...that everything's just fine But when I stand back and look at you you seem content to be behind You think you're being helpful I just think you are too frail with a weak mind I thought you would grow up I tried to give you time but if I'm waiting for a worthy son... That's something I won't find." One of the few men I look up to....doesn't appreciate my way of showing love and helping other is unique not always great. But when it comes to fucking over friends or family for individualness sake I can't...I wouldn't fuck the world...I'd rather masturbate Mother says "I don't know who you are cuz you sure as hell ain't no son of mine. a disgrace to your father and i Poetic Soul? nah, garbage mind and if I wasn't full of promise I would be halfway out of my mind cuz your future looks mighty dim... the light in you I cannot find." Words that were meant to pierce...shot through the heart stabbed in the back. You see words are not just things that you can say and take them back So before my reason leaves me and consciousness just fades to black... I love you...

Car broken into

Yeah...as if my day hasn't been shitty enough...just found out that someone was seen in my car going through my shit....I have a license plate from an eye witness but still....just really pissed off...

A start to something?

It's amazing the things people will do with priceless things simply because they don't know or value their worth.

in progress...

It starts with simplicity. Eat...grow...survive...what's it's known for all it's life. But at some point a change starts...on the inside and it can burn like fire or be cold as ice but it's happening. You see...it's existence is mundane. It's trite...it's ordinary and no one even notices the change.

Part One (I'm so alone)

The life of the party, just sippin' Bacardi and this girl's been in my ear, she looks nice but she's naughty hands me her room key Later on I'm in the hotel lobby wonderin' if she's the answer to my loneliness First kiss...nothing Second kiss...nothing Feelings don't even register as my hands start to caress her sexy body A single thought occurred...to her sex is just a hobby And hours later laying beside her, she's nameless...could've been anybody cuz I'm wide awake and I'm still feeling alone...

Change

Change...shit...it's exciting...yet frightening. And it's a shame how some people, out of fear, seem to cling to this mindset of...embrace the old...screw the new. But as for this lonely poet...I'm ready. Ready to adopt a new philosophy. Ready to change my current direction cuz quite possibly there's nothing for me where it's headed. Ready to take steps along this new road that to my peers...just appears to be dreaded. Ready to pour out my heart and soul creating something better than Keith and if you don't like it...Fuck you...that's right, I said it. I'm ready for my world to revolve around ME.
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