Poet's blog: "Poet's Place"

You may not believe that I care for you

My actions and words to not support one another

No one at any given time knows how I am feeling

What scares me the most is that not even myself may know

I am an enigma of the human soul; bound by others searching for my truth

Their questions hold no answers, yet no lies

How can one lie when they do not know the truth

Love is just as confusing, if not more

To depict with words, to match to emotions

I know that what I'm feeling is quite new to me

Yet, I rise and fall with my heart exposed

I may know that I love, though still be unsure

Of the path and direction I should take

The unknown and unseen terrify me

My heart is caught in trance -

Should I step forward with my eyes closed

Or wait for strength to guide me

If I leap with questions unanswered, would I fall in love

Or land with my heart broken

You may be certain of what it is you want

With the readiness to take your future by the reigns

I'm forced to step back, to figure myself out

When I stumble onto my own realization

All their questions, my own,  will be answered.

Tears keep falling from my eyes, 
in an emotional-breakdown undertow. 
To sink and be found broken, 
by the pain that only love can alleviate. 
The pains and fears seem to magnify 
a trecherous stirring in my soul. 
My sadness is raging wild; 
the rush of lonliness begins to suffocate. 
Grasping for a breath, 
my emotions swirl around as to lift me up. 
A pull, a tug; 
strength grabs the arm that directs me to higher ground. 
An angel in presence, a care-taker in soul; embodied in my spirit. 
Confusion rests upon the wind of my being; 
letting it ride by, as I rest now.

At times I wish to run away 
And not look back again 
For all the pain and hurt I've had 
Has washed away all that I am 
I had lists of dreams and goals to conquer 
Failure has left me to rot 
Into all the aspects that I tend to hate 
Leaving me to wish that I had not 
Forcing emotions to spin away 
Into depths of despair and anguish 
My bare soul stripped to the core 
Exposing all the sin 
What is left for me to accomplish 
Except failure, lust, and loss of trust 
I'm bored alone, left to myself 
Watching that list, by choice, being crushed