darkgothpoet86's blog: "Poems"

I wish I didn't have to live in this darkness That constantly surrounds my miserable life No matter what I do or say It always feels like a constant night is falling over me And in this constant night where no stars shine I have to learn to be strong and wise In hopes that one day I will be set free From this constant night that surrounds me

Let me forget you or have you Or at least allow me the pleasure to die Before my heart is frostbitten

Thick is my blood That unleashes this bloody hell I was so high above you, That I fell. The knife is not yet finished Torturing my flesh, I die even deeper with each breath. Every touch crumbles me; I have been crucified, Once again you resurrected me And I hate you, For you refuse to bare my plea. The darkness is burying me, Further down in this grave. I wanted to love you, But I could never have been that brave. For it is thy fire That hath raptured me. I am spreading slowly. Expanding, growing, feeling more With each and every scream. And yet no matter how hard I try, I can not awake from this dream hell. And you could never tell I was there at all Until you light your fire, And you will see my apparition. And before your eyes, I will fall.

Her I sit, thinking only of you Wondering what is to become of us Understanding all you have been through Hoping to slowly gain your trust My heart aches for you, and also I yearn I want to understand you In hopes that I will learn Your unique and special qualities amaze me Your smile Your mind Your voice and its beautiful sound Your hair Your ability to cheer me up When you see that I am down My feelings for you go beyond that of words And at first it didn't seem real But that just taught me a lesson In doubting what I feel It seems I dreamed you into life And the reason for my stare The bluest sky The deepest sea Don't even compare Shane, you're so very special in every single way And thoughts of you Run through my head Every hour of the day In hope that you will understand Just how I feel about you I want to be your guiding hand For all that you go through

All my life I had built up a fantasy of the perfect man. Countless romance stories and fables helped make that fantasy a reality in my mind. Searching for that fantasy lead to many disappointments. Reality made it clear that there was no such man. As the years went by, the fantasy started to fade away - until I met you. I had almost given up on the fantasy until my fantasy became reality, that reality became you.

Could you be the one for me? Could you be my find? Could it be, after all this time, Fate is going to be kind? Could you be the one for me, The one to help me forget The man that broke my heart, my soul The man that haunts me yet? You tell me that I'm beautiful Something I've never heard But the one still lives here in my mind That couldn't spare a kind word. It's going to be hard to forget And pick up the pieces he left Could you be the one to teach How to love again and forget? Could you be the one to come And mend my broken heart? Are you willing to piece together What another broke apart? It won't be an easy job, you see My road has been long and rough And the heart that was once so soft Is now shut, locked, and tough. But I can feel my heart open again It's opening for you Just come in, and love me back That's all you have to do. I must ask you one small thing Before we kiss and part Please be nice and kind to me I'm tired of broken hearts.

wrap your arms around me set all your passions free let me set the fire that rages deep within thee I need to feel the touch of your lips upon my cheek and feel your every breath of life and hear each word you speak love me and never stop for if you do I'll cry I'll curl up in the dying fire and in my own flames die

I'm happy when it hurts, And sad when it's painless; I'm content when it's dirty, And uncomfortable when it's painless. I'm living for death, But dying for life; I want a family, But I won't be your wife. And I'm a living contradiction, In my world and in my mind; I know I belong, But I'm looking for my own kind. I'm too strong to lose, But too weak to win; I'm laughing outside, But crying within. And I'm screaming inside, But I can't complain, 'Cause I'm once again free, But held down by your chain. And I'm a living contradiction, Burning at the stake; I don't really lie, But the truth's hard to take. I want to be heard, But I'm muted from sound; I'm lost in my thoughts, But don't want to be found. And everyone loves me, I couldn't be more alone; I am where I belong, But I can't find home. And I'm the contradiction, Living under another name; I could never be perfect, But I have no shame.

My body may be gone But my spirit lives on The sun will always shine And you will always be mine As night follows day My spirit is here to stay Never apart I will live on in your heart Until we are once more united Our loving words once more recited I will love you always Long after our earthly days We will walk with the Lord Hard times we have endured But our love will see us through In Heaven we can start anew