You Annoy Me's blog: "Poems"

Today was a day of sorrow, Today I was going to commit suicide. I could feel the cold metal barrel on my head. As I pulled back the trigger, All I could hear was the pin slamming. Out of nowhere I saw my friends, my family and my life flash before my eyes. And now I wish i did not do it. But now it's too late. Now all I can hear from the heavens above is... ashes to ashes and dust to dust. This one was written by my brother.

I keep having this horrible nightmare, and it seems to never stop. Someone told me that you had shot yourself, and you had died from the injurys. I couldn't believe it was true, You would never do that, But you had done it. I went to your viewing on Thursday. The line was so long, So many people wanted to see you. I finally had my turn to see you... I walked up to the casket, Not knowing what to say or do, So I just stood there staring at you. You looked like an angel. They had your hair spiked, just the way you liked it. You were wearing you favortie red hoodie. You looked as good today as every other day. I triied really hard not to cry, But I couldn't help it when I saw you. Your funeral was the next day. So many people showed up, A lot of people cared about you. There were pictures of you all over the church, Everywhere I looked I seen you. Everyone said such nice things about you, Unlike what was said to you before. As we proceeded to the cemetary, I couldn't stop crying. They way there I tried to think of happy thoughts. But all I could think was I'd never see you again, Which made me cry more. I wondered why god would take you away, You had never done anything wrong. Almost everyone had a flower for you, they laid them on your casket. Mine was in a more special place, on your chest next to your heart. We sang songs to help you ease the pain, And talked about how wonderful you were. But they crying never stopped. Then I realized this wasn't a nightmare, this was really happening. The kindest person in the world, was taken away in the blink of an eye. Again I asked myself "why?" Why would god take you away, What had you done wrong? All I have now are my precious memories. I wish we had hung out more, And became closer friends. But I cherish the times we were together, and all I've learned from you. I know you're happier now than you were before, But I wish you hadn't gone so soon. In my heart is where you will stay, Through my thoughts is where you will wonder. Till the day when my times comes, and we meet again at the gates of heaven. I will live my life like you were here, and never let you fade away. I will always miss and love you Damon. In Loving Memory of Damon Alan Campbell July 17, 1986 - November 4, 2002

We used to talk We used to laugh We were best of freinds I thought that's how it would always be You taught me so much Told me exactly what to say I wish it were still the same But someday I know it will Maybe not today But we'll meet up again It won't be long until I see your face In heaven that marvelous day

Bullet to the brain We froze when we heard those words of pain What was to be said? Our friend, Damon was dead Suicide is what was done Why, he seemed the cheerful one. If only I heard his desperate cry, Then maybe my friend wouldn't have to die. They say the words to him were mean, Yet somehow they went unseen. This wasnt supposed to be this way! I still have nightmares about that day. In the casket, you lie. And all in all we really try, To hold back our grieving tears, I grab your frozen hanf to calm my fears. The red roses and cards all around, We place them in your casket with no sound. The memories of you begin to stack. Please, Damon, will you come back? I wush we could have been better friend, But now your gone and we must mend. I want to let you know that you were awesome from the start. And my friend, you had a good heart! *I miss you*

I have so many things to tell you, that I dont know how to say. So many things are happening, and things are changing everyday.. Some things are getting better, and others are just getting worse. Everything is changing, and everyone is hurt... I am always hurting, I always seem to cry. Everyone is leaving, and dont even say goodbye... Suicide seems to linger in everybodys mind, they know that its a stupid thing, but still things it all the time... They think that thier depression is fatal enough to die. They think it would be better, and no one would even cry... They're just being stupid, they arnt thinking clear, and all they're doing is hurting the people they love so dear... I know you're in heaven, looking down from up above. Please just show these poeple that all they need is love.

We all know you're gone and gone is forever.I sometimes think I hear and see you, then I think it's not true and it breaks my hearts in two- two pieces that slowly mend together, month after month. Memories are painful and also wonderful. Why god wanted you now is something no one knows why you took his hand and left us all behind. What we will always know and always show is that you are a wonderful friend. We love you Damon!

You have left me with many memories, I miss you everyday. Sometimes I think of you, Not more than today. You'll never be forgotten, In my heart you are there to stay. I wish I could talk to you, Where ever you may lay. But that would take a miracle. Each day I have to ask why, And why I couldn't say goodbye. I miss you so much, I can't do it on my own. I think of you constantly, And I know you're not alone. With that I want to say, I'll think of you everyday.

Something so hard goes straight to the soul, Seems impossible to get over and my heart is left with a big hole. Im trying to be happy, wearing a smile, But I'm dying inside. The world seems to be fading, and I just want to run and hide. Everywhere I go I see your face, And realize how much I miss you. And on the day you died a piece of me died too.

You meant so much to all of us You were so special and thats no lie. You brightened up the darkest day and the cloudiest sky. Your smile alone warmed hearts, Your laugh was like music to hear. I would give absolutely anything to have you well and standing near. Not a second passes, When you're not in our minds. Your love we will never forget, The hurt will ease iin time. Many tears I have seen and cried, They have all poured out like rain. I know that you are happy now, And no longer in pain. RIP DAMON ALLEN CAMPBELL

A cold steel barrel caresses me temple to remind me of my world. The pommel in my hand reminds me of what I've done. My finger lightly kissing the trigger to remind me of why I'm here. The hammer pulling back chills my soul. The primer in the shell meakes me fear. The slug exploding into the barrel reminds me of how people treated me, without care. The blood they see makes them cry and sniffle, a good act they do put on. The lid closes and the final words are said. When all is said and done, Ash to ash and dust to dust. RIP Damon