hatchet soldier's blog: "Poems"

She would be smart. She would be funny. She would always be there in a hurry. She would be sexy. She would be classy But most of all a little sassy. She'd have style. She'd have grace. She would be there to put me in my place. She would understand. She would worry- Sometimes her eyes a little blurry. We would fight. We would quarrel, But in the end you would still be my girl. We would talk. We would cry. We would wipe the tears from each other's eyes. We would love. We would fuss. We would always make up. We would laugh. We would joke, But most of all we would always love each other no matter what.

I just want to take you away-- Away from all the misery and pain To a place you can feel safe inside I'd give you all my heart. I'd give you everything you could need. I'd take you away and make you my queen. You're such a special person. I had no meaning till we came to be. You showed me the way to be free. You opened my heart to all it could be. I just want to take you away. I just want you to feel free. But that wasn't enough for you. You always wanted more, You stupid bitch. You took my everything And broke it into two. How I just want to slap the shit out of you. You two-faced, good-for-nothing, stupid, dumbass hoe. Your going to rot in hell for this shit. I'll never be the same. You ruined me for everyone. I'll never be able to trust again.

My heart bleeds and aches- Broken, unable to heal, Burnt by love, Lost in hope, Drowning in anticipation That one day this pain will fade, Away without a thought, Gone in a single day. It's just too much. Can't handle it anymore. Love is for fools. It breeds pain and hate. I’ll die alone Before it happens again. Never will I be broken. My mind is clear, My eyes wide open, Ready to face the day, Ready to begin, Ready for my heart to mend

No one knows what its like to be me- what goes on inside my head. My mind races to and fro with nowhere to go. I wish it will all just end- just go away, leave me alone. Why am I so prone to feel this way? Just me leave me alone. Just let me be. Get the fuck out of my face. Don't make me unleash the beast within. A monster grows inside me. It eats and feeds at my rage fueled by all these idiots with their constant bitching and complaining About nothing that matters. All their problems and griefs mean nothing compared to what I have seen.

IM GOING OUT OF MY MINE THERE IS NO PLACE THERE IS NO TIME ITS JUST ME WITH NOWHERE TO BE I HAVE NO PURPOSE I HAVE NO GOALS WHAT IS TO BE OF ME I WISH I COULD ONLY SEE AM I THE ONLY ONE HERE THIS JUST CANT BE IM OUTTA CONTROL I HAVE NO PURPOSE I HAVE NO ROLE DOESNT ANYONE SEE JUST LET ME BE ME

Cut my wrist watch it spill the fluid that gives us life and makes us ill im feeling weak as a gush turns into a drip a light guides me from the darkness of my so called life all my pain washed awy no more worries no more pain nothing at all life ass you know it will never be the same except for the reminder from the red blood stains