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akhballer11's blog: "poems"

created on 01/12/2010  |  http://fubar.com/poems/b328064

just poems

Back Up From The Fall
For some people, falling is easy.
I never really was one of those people.
I always stood strong and a never missed a step.
I was once unmovable.
Until I met you.
You threw me around like I couldn't believe.
You drung me out in the rain and had me tripping over my feet.
You made falling easy.
And so I fell.
The problem was that I couldn't fall forever.
I've hit the bottom without a splash.
Now I'm faced with a new problem.
My legs are broken from the fall.
Getting up seems impossible.
But my hope drives me to do the impossible.
I will stand again.
I will get back up from this fall.
Back From The Darkside.
I went from good to bad.
I ruined my white shirt.
I took my clean soul and threw it in the dirt.
I gave up on trying and didnt really care of defeat.
I took a walk on the wild side and tripped over my feet.
Then a mighty hand smacked me in the face.
He asked me what I was doing in this dark place.
When only silence left my mouth.
I knew without a doubt.
That it was all wrong.
It was an illusion, nothing but a shame.
I decided to change back.
And so here I am.
I took my dirty shirt and hit it with some Tide.
I washed my soul clean and Im back from the darkside.
My soul is clean again and im goin to keep it that way.
If someone asks me what Im doing here this is what I'll say.
Im here to help spread the word of God.
To save the souls of man.
To bring them back from the darkside and help them understand.
Sides of a Two Faced Coin
 
I like it when you smile.
I like your pouting face.
But when I look in your eyes,
I'm lost without a trace.
 
I see into your mind.
Through all the clouds of doubt.
I've locked you in my heart.
And I don't want you out.
 
I see the words you write and they touch me in my soul.
We're both trapt in this world with nowhere else to go.
The others don't get it and they probably never will.
But I see through it all and I know just how you feel.
 
We are both sides of a coin with more than just one face.
You are a special part of me that no one can ever replace.
Hidden Agression
I get it from here and there.
I find it everywhere.
I won't let it out.
I'll ball it up instead.
I'll let build to the top, but only in my head.
If its really there, you will never know.
I'll hold on to it tight.
Everywhere I go.
I'll clinch it with my fist.
While my blood is red.
I'll hold it with all my might.
Until im cold and dead.
I don't want to do this.
I hate to hold it in.
I don't want to have this when I meet my end.
I dare not be cruel enough.
To let it go on you.
So I'll suck it up and bite my lips.
Until my days are through.
Burried
 
Happiness!
That's something that seems to avoid this place.
I try to bring my own happiness into this trap, but it always seems to escape me.
I don't blame it though. I would do the same if I could.
 
What keeps me here? I wonder.
I'm not doing anybody any good by digging myself deeper into this hole.
Is it guilt that keeps me here?
I've held us both up for so long.
The younger one left her and I wonder if i should too.
 
Deeper and deeper the hole gets.
In the hole I find myself constricted.
I can't move and there's no air.
The end is coming.
 
The pressure is piling on.
I'm slowly disappearing under the pain of the others like me.
The dirt of my past continues to pile on.
I'm burried now and no one even knows it.

longer poems lol

Lying in the Dark

As I lay here, I see nothing.

Only the fairy tales in my mind.

Tales made from the lies I tell myself.

Lies that I use to hide myself from the truthes I can't face.

 

As I lay here, nothing scares me.

Fear of losing something doesn't exist.

Simply because there is nothing in the darkness that can be lost.

Except ones self, but then again how can I lose what I don't have.

 

As I lay here, I feel a certain freedom.

One that only the darkness can bring.

I'm no longer lost in the sea of lies told by others

I'm free.

Free to be myself.

I am myself here, there is no one else but me.

Lying in the dark.

 

 

 

 

 

I Thought

 

I thought I was good, I thought I was tough.

Inside I knew I was never good enough.

 

I thought I was strong but I was weak.

I thought in this life I would never find what I seeked.

 

When I thought of death, thoughts filled my mind.

I thought of what I would see and

what I would leave behind.

 

When I thought of life,

I thought of alot of things.

I thought of all the happiness it brings.

 

I thought of light and I thought of dark that feels the night.

 

I thought of demons from below and angels from above.

I thought of Satin's hatred and God's holy love.

 

I thought that there was no place for me, but

now I see that with God is where I am meant to be.

 

 

 

 

 

Prison of Sin

 

 

I'm just another man fighting the battles of life.

I have to say I almost gave of twice.

I almost quit, I almost did it with a knife.

 

 

Cause when I'm alone it's like my spirit is gone,

and I just want my life to end.

Then I ask and then God saves me again.

 

 

God saved me from the state I was in.

God freed from a prison of sin.

 

 

Just listen I'm saying it's true,

that there's no better love

then what God has for you.

 

 

He will cleanse your soul.

He will open your eyes.

There's an endless amount of ways

that he saves lives.

 

 

Cause even when your alone,

and it's like your spirit is gone,

and you just want your life to end.

Just ask and God will save you again.

 

 

God will save from the state you are in.

God will free you from a prison of sin.

 

 

Believe me God will save you from hell.

God saved your soul and he wants you to tell.

 

 

So just spread the word, do it for them.

Help them find God.

Help them escape the prison of sin.

 

 

 

 

 

 

short poems

Can I Be Your Number 1
Through good and bad im here for you.
Even though im your number two.

Ive accepted my place at least for now.
Knowing that if i need you, you'll be around.

I hope someday my place with change.
I hope its your heart that i can soon claim.

For you i can wait as long as the rising of the sun.
Hoping someday i will be your number one.
Our Moment
I wanna love someone like in the movies.
I wanna find that girl in the perfect moment.
A moment that was made just for us.
The kind of moment where everything changes for the best.
The moment that people dream of.
A moment that is forever frozen in time.
The moment we can never forget.
I want that moment.
Our moment.
Caught
 
Caught in the confusions of our generation.
There is no real answers to the questions of our desire.
We want peace and happiness, but how can we be something that destroys who we are?
Raised on war and corruption, we march upon the field of dreams.
War is what we turn to when we have no answers to the questions.
So we destroy the webs that tangle us.
Its our only real attempt at freedom.
We are those that cannot be caught be anyone else but ourselves.
Though we can't be touched by the meekness of our questions, it is those questions we ask ourselves that keep us in the web we have woven.
Forever we are caught.

Blinded by Love

I thought you were an angel form up above. Sent by God to shower me with love.

Now I know I was wrong to trust you. I was blinded by love i thought was true.

These loving eyes were blind. They never saw you. They saw what they loved and not what was true.

Through this desception, now I see that we were never truely meant to be.

 

 

 

 

The Cost of Love

Because of love he was born. Because of love he was torn.

His blood running down the cross. Many wheep in sorrow on that sad day of loss.

They did not know that he died for our sin. They did not know that he would rise again.

His love cost him his life, it’s true. He died for our sins. He died for me and you.

 

 

 

 

A Special One

Another lonely man in a big world. Searching for the love of a special girl.

He searches all the time all over the world. Hoping to find the love of a special girl.

He does not know her name or where she’s from. All he knows is that she’s a special one.

Created by God from up above. Together at last they find a special love.

So now you see it was meant to be. There is somebody for everyone even you and me.

Untouchable Angel

She's a mountain i can't climb,
a river I can't cross.

Far beyond me she mocks those beneath her,
without regret, without mercy.

She see's herself as a loner,
who needs no one.
Though she surrounds herself with many.

She sings the siren's song to no end.
Pulling more and more into a trap for the heart.

Doomed to never know true love,
she soars far above the rest.
An untouchable angel never to be reached.

 

Song: In Heaven

In Heaven

Verse 1
Look at me.
I know it's not easy but someday you'll see.
There's a better place beyond this life.
And you'll find happiness like mine.

In Heaven.


CHORUS

So dont look away.
Keep your eyes on the prize.
And try not to stray.
Just stay strong.
And know that with Jesus, is where you belong.
Please dont give in.
Hang on and one day you'll be next to him.
In Heaven, in Heaven.


Verse 2
I know that it's hard, to live a life that scarred by the pain of loss.
Just take his hand.
Follow his path away from this place.
And try not stray from his grace.

And you'll find for the first time.
That happiness is real and that here thats all that you feel.

In Heaven.


CHORUS

So dont look away.
Keep your eyes on the prize.
And try not to stray.
Just stay strong.
And know that with Jesus, is where you belong.
Please dont give in.
Hang on and one day you'll be next to him.
In Heaven, in Heaven.



Verse 3
So just close your eyes.
There's no need to cry.
Cause your struggle is over and soon you'll be by his side.

In Heaven.

So just fly away.
Keep an eye on me.
And tell Jesus what I say.
"Thank you"

"For being strong,
cause you knew I belonged."

"You didnt give in, and died for my sin."

So I could be.

In Heaven.

Song: Dont Go

Don’t Go

That’s pretty bad, what you said to me. (duh duh duh duh)
That your drowning in apathy. (duh duh duh duh)
You don’t care anymore.
You don’t want to be here.
All you want is to leave me drinking my tears.

CHORUS:
DON’T GO!
don’t go

DON’T GO!
don’t go

I wish you would just take back. (duh duh duh duh)
I promise it would be better than that. (duh duh duh duh)
If you take my last name it will never be the same.
I’ll take you high in the sky.
In the rain I’ll keep you dry.

CHORUS:
DON’T GO!
don’t go

DON’T GO!
don’t go

Don’t do this, please don’t go. (duh duh duh duh)
Loving you is all I know. (duh duh duh duh)
Listen to my flow and know that it’s true. (duh duh duh duh)
Just believe I’d do it all for you.
 
CHORUS:
DON’T GO!
don’t go

DON’T GO!
don’t go

I don’t want it to end like this. (duh duh duh duh)
My sorrow tears leave a bitter kiss. (duh duh duh duh)
I can’t believe this is it.
It can’t be over.
No I’m not ready to quit.

CHORUS:
DON’T GO!
don’t go

DON’T GO!
don’t go

DON’T GO!
don’t go

Well if it’s over I’ll let it go. (duh duh duh duh)
But there is something I want you to know. (duh duh duh duh)
If you end this with me, I’ll never be myself.
Cause without you I have nothing else.
 
CHORUS:
SO DON’T GO!
don’t go

DON’T GO!
don’t go

Don’t go.
It's Worth the Fight
It's been a long time coming.
Five years in the making.
I watched others come and go as I stood there waiting.

Smile at me baby.
I had hoped you might.
I stayed there and waited.
Cause it's worth the fight.

chorus:

You are, you are, you are all I wanted.

I won't, I won't, I won't let you leave my sight.

Cause it's worth the fight.

I'll stay with you baby.
I'll never leave your side.
Forever I'll stay, for the rest of my life.

I'll avoid the light.
Strive to stay alive.
To hold on to your love.
Cause it's worth the fight.

chorus:

You are, you are, you are all I wanted.

I won't, I won't, I won't let you leave my sight.

Cause it's worth the fight.


Now you'be cut the line and have started to drift away.
And with my harsh words I pushed you farther away.

I didn't mean to say those things to you.
Deep down I knew that......

You are all I wanted.
And I don't want you to leave my sight.
Cause you are worth the fight.
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