BalaCamgirl in FetishFuOwned by BC's blog: "Poems"

i once thought id be missed if i left this cold world would u wonder... if i never came back friends i thought once might... were never really there... i realise i am alone everyday is a reminder of being so alone if i didnt wake up would u even miss me wonder what happened to my always smilling face... I was never really smilling just always made it seem that way i was the strong one and you oh so weak but here u are surrounded by love and friendship and im sitting here alone wonder why im even here there is only so much... one person can take and as i reach for someone no ones ever there im always here to lisent yet no ones ever there this blade is all i have broken heart... Bruises... they are my company if i called ur name would u even notice would u hear my cries for help sitting here bleeding feeling the relief i accept my lonelyness realising its all i have....

Words coming from your lips Tears falling from my eyes You look right threw me Not seeing all the pain inside You think you’re the only one hurting You don’t understand my hearts breaking Crying so hard Gasping for air While you sit there selfishly in your comfy chair I just want someone to care All alone in this world So much love to give Wishing you could see threw my smile Cause inside im broken… And It hurts to look into your eyes Knowing that deep down inside.. im so damaged…

I feel so stupid Every time I think of you Time wasted Love lost Wishing I could tell The difference between right And what is so wrong I believed you I thought you cared Thinking of u made me so happy And now all I can do Is cry at the simple thought of you You broke my heart without a doubt I never though you’d dream of hurting me But here I am overwhelmed with pain Not even knowing what to do I thought u would be there When I needed you the most But instead you broke me When my heart couldn’t take it You push me down and beat me When I was already half gone…

All in a day She ties her shoe, Leather straps disappear. Fashion trend- polluted mind. Destroyed- "Who cares!" Black eye, closed door. Baby on its way. Shoe off, naked sole, Grasps assaulted sheets. Open door-stained face. Leaving on her own. Fashion dead, mind corrupted. Her shoes? Behind the bed!

A child grows hungry on a crowded city street. with fear of losing her all, she prays silently for the love she never had. A silent tear falls down her face as darkness creeps in and draws her last breath. A child forgotten in a city, never knowing her true place, never knowing what a home is. A child's whispered plea to find a true home to find someone who will truly care. A child who has grown up far beyond its age looks for some luck. A child never knowing what love is. falls asleep in the city and each morning as the sun comes up She continues her journey To hopefully, One day, Find those loving arms that she’s dreamt of

The pain cuts like a knife Where are you when I need you Never there Your just never there No one to count on No one to wipe away my tears So broken inside yet no one to care Your all so happy While im dying inside No one to protect me Or hold me when things get hard Instead you make me wonder About this life im living When you look in my eyes Don’t you see the pain? My broken heart… The scars…the bruises… Or do you just not care? What are parents good for If not to teach, nurture and care… To show me light When the world give me more Then even I can handle alone They are there to break my heart When it needs mending They are there to make me cry When im already down They are there to push the blade When its already cutting They are as good to me as a bottle of tears… Just there to remind me of the pain…