Bittersweet's blog: "poems"

into the night she stepped Like broken shards of glass It ripped through her soul a feeling well known an angels sigh once more. fear itself sat upon her shoulders Raining down its weight Down to her knees she fell Shattering her inner light Continue she tryed A girl with a broken smile heavy heavy heart untouchable laugh tore her apart Inches away from the end she so craved pushing further loving a lie a mystery a truth unknown Simple things lead her this way simple things destroyed her Simple things, All it took.. She a voice.. Crying out Never heard.. To be forgotten, a story untold..

A heart wrapped in plastic taped up by the scars, crushed in pieces, lying on thy floor.. Stepped on and smothered, bleeding grasping to be free, no going back, hidden away.. Shadowed paths, calling its name, ending nothing, just leaving everything the same, silence all around even the screams go quiet, slowly turning emotionless swallowing ones sorrows, hidding away.. a choice taken not wanted but taken.. a path a journey an end.. Alone..

Another stand taken.. So many more to come.. Soldiers of many worlds.. come and go.. Taking lives not there own.. Fighting a fight for an unknown cause.. Missing the outside.. Behind invisible bars.. Endless fear of the troubled past, Keeping them down from what can become.. Tears of the lost, Tears of the cost they gave into.. Forever in circled by a future yet to come.. Another stand taken.. Another world gone by, To many memories, Yet not enough to hide.. Foot steps left behind.. A faded dream.. A broken path.. Another soldier taken in a world not his own.. Another stand taken.. When will it end.. A new world to come.. But no where to be found. A revolution, a new making, a beginning, something beautiful???? Just another stand.....

Falling fast like tomorrow will never come oceans turning black falling stars, crashing down what am i anymore, Where do i belong, where should i stand and empty place an empty hand fevers rush the midnight sky's i seem to be forever lost within your eyes.. gasping out no breath to take just an emptiness within this place..

She sits and stairs blankly at what seems to be a wall.. The room so black, filled with silence.. nothing is heard not even her tears that fall to the floor.. She cant figure out what she has done wrong, why others turn away, why others give her hopes only to smash her dreams.. Her life seems so empty, as if there was nothing there at all.. As if she was a shadow inside the silent room, as if when someone finally sees the light she quickly fades away, becomes nothing, just been washed away.. All her life she sits in darkness, waiting for her time to come, but as one day passes another comes, but not once is it her time.. her heart trys to heal, she allows others in, she tells herself not to, yet she cant turn them away.. She wants to be there for anyone in need, she wants to care for everyone who is without.. but all she ever wanted was to be needed in return to be loved, and cherished and cared for by those she has allowed in.. "What is so wrong with me?" she asks.. her head held low.. in a quiet voice her last few words she says "If the shadows are what they see me as then the shadows are what ill be"

an invisible veil shields her eyes.. all you see is a face thats fake deep within she isnt the same she crys for her freedom she crys for her name she walks with grace never complains gives to them all they ask only deep inside shes torn she hides who she is desnt make a sound follows hidden in the shadows they seem to see right through her as tho she didnt excist underneath it all she is broken she is pained but through it all she hides it well so those around her can smile just the same..

She sat there looking out the painted glass.. her heart pounding faster as each click of the clock went by.. A remeberance of her past flashes by as she sits and crys... A smile however is layed upon her lips.. Now placing her hand upon the window she closes her eyes.. much of what she thought she new began to form into questions.. A sigh slid past her lips as she took it all in The more it passed over her the harder it seemed to get however her smile never faded only began to grow as the tears fell hard.. but her smile just grew bigger finally her eyes opened and she tore back the paint upon the glass a new beginning she felt as she realized her past only made her what she is today.. her future her goals her everything.. her past was her happiness.. an ending to a great beginning of her new life to come.

~ Blank ~ my eyes are open but i can not see seems as tho everyone is watching me i don't want to be that girl the one who gave up so easily i don't want to be the one who questions everything i don't want to grow up misunderstood i don't want to fear the world i don't want to never understand i don't want to die alone.. the eyes pierce through me i begin to bleed but no one cares no seems to see that deep down I'm blinded I'm lost within my own insecurities I'm a child in my own world my tears are dark i feel their eyes yet i see no face everything is blank an unpainted canvas , i try so hard i want to believe but deep within i just don't have it in me no matter how hard i try i stand alone, with no one at my side so now i sit here and close my eyes pretend that I'm just not alive. i begin to tune out the eyes i being to fade into the darkness i grow more torn before i become no more.. i was the girl now i am nothing just the empty shadows the blank canvas of our life's ..

DEATHS GRIP Im choking, drowning, turning blue.. A sea of terror flowing through.. sinking fast no rope to grab darkness creeping in.. The shadowed figure outreaches his hand beckoning me to his land, wanting what is his.. Gripping me tightly drawing me near no more fight left just my fears... Single tear left behind a footprint fading fast the flame went out and the end became clear.. Drowning i did for so long now the time has come goodbye to those i never knew goodbye to those i loved goodbye to those i hated for now death is here..

my eyes are open but i can not see seems as tho everyone is watching me i don't want to be that girl the one who gave up so easily i don't want to be the one who questions everything i don't want to grow up misunderstood i don't want to fear the world i don't want to never understand i don't want to die alone.. the eyes pierce through me i begin to bleed but no one cares no seems to see that deep down I'm blinded I'm lost within my own insecurities I'm a child in my own world my tears are dark i feel their eyes yet i see no face everything is blank an unpainted canvas , i try so hard i want to believe but deep within i just don't have it in me no matter how hard i try i stand alone, with no one at my side so now i sit here and close my eyes pretend that I'm just not alive. i begin to tune out the eyes i being to fade into the darkness i grow more torn before i become no more.. i was the girl now i am nothing just the empty shadows the blank canvas of our life's ..