InnocentlyEvil's blog: "Poems"

You don't realize. Your self worth you minimize. Putting him first, Your self-worth you compromise. But even worse, Anything not him you vilify. You let temptation get the best of you. You let curiousity get next to you. You let poor judgement take the rest of you. Now I'm left with this question. What's left of you?

Will you still love me if I go? Will you still feel the touch you have known? Will you cry into the night, Say it just isn't right? Will you just sit and say "so"? Will you still want me if I leave? Will you feel lost and bereaved? Will you pull on through, Meet someone new? WIll you feel hurt and decieved? Will you remember my eyes? Will you ask God "why?" Will you play a new song, Maybe sing along? Will you reminisce of me and cry? Will you miss me forever when I'm gone? Will you say you knew all along? Will you flash that smile, Every once in a while? Will you keep my love? Will you still yearn for me if I disappear? Will you realize what you've got, dear? Will you think of me as a friend, Cherish the times that've been? Will you howl at the moon cuz you want me near? Will you make me honest when I'm fifty? Will you grow old and grey with me? Will you treat me like your queen, Tell me everything? Will you open your eyes and finally see..... Before I am gone?

Why do I love you? Is it the things you do Or the things we've been through? When we were one, I tried many things for you. I made sure I gave you pleasure But you never gave me the same measure. Why do you constantly abuse me? Why do you continually misuse me? When we would fight, Day after day Night after night I would cry Asking God why I forgave you But still I ask Why do I still love you? After all the shit you put me through....

He has this way That commands attention A smile that can Ignite the sun His laugh can infect The strongest of immunities A mind vibrantly brilliant And second to none You'll never know A sweeter soul He can turn a Bad day around With a simple glance In your direction His eyes can melt With a desire unfound Voice with a whisper Can soothe on demand A cherished way of Making me smile Never met a stranger Heart deeper than The length of the Nile His dynamic personality Will turn your head With a word can Subdue any hurt A perfect body That was built for sin GQ would want him Without his shirt I thank my lucky stars Everyday for him He has tenderness Every woman dreams of Talent that inspires My every urge And this Is the man that I love.

Some days are simply harder than most Those are the days with this lump in my throat Some days I miss you more than I should Cry for no reason, even if I feel good Some days I yearn for your body to lie next to mine While I wish for the heavens to give me a sign Some days I laugh at your silly little grunts I giggle to show you I am strong. It's my front. Some days I can feel your kisses on my closed eyes Other days, I believe in my minds fabricated lies. Some days I want nothing more than to hold your hand Watch the sunrise from the ocean, our toes in the sand Some days I am a better person than I think Those are the days I like to wear pink Some days I am ok with everything between us Others I miss you so damn much I start to fuss. Some days I just want to bask in your glow While the wind shakes my core with its burly blow Some days I want to hold you tighter, closer to my heart Others I dream of you whispering " I hate when we are apart." Some days I wish you could really see through my eyes I'd bet you a million there's a few things you'd realize Some days I can see the future so elegantly bright While rain is pouring all over me on a stormy fated night Some days I can't see my future at all, just a ticking bomb My strength and our love help me disarm it with aplomb Then..... Some days I get to hold you ever so snug and tightly Passion ravages through our veins, as it should, rightly These are the days that get me through the ones that devastate Although few, they are rich with a power that sedates Most days are simply easier than some it's true That's when I've swallowed that eradicating lump Just for you.

Eyes full of life And smiles do lie Cause now I know Angels do cry I just can't say How much I care For you to hurt Is just not fair. And when I see You shed a tear You feeling pain Is my worst fear. Confide in me And all the while I will search for words To make you smile. I'll hold you in My warm embrace I'll wipe those tears From your sweet face Through any pain That you might feel Remember that Our bond is real However bad Things seem to be Know in the end You'll still have me

I waited forever for someone like you, What is it that you do? One wave, I cave. But not this time It's me you'll never find. I was born to cry, hide, and lose, But I was raised to think, love myself, and choose. You loved the drug, never me. I trusted you, so just leave! Everyone warned me, But I couldn't see. Your hands covered my eyes, And now they're dry, I won't let myself cry. So I'll move on and just let go, No more wondering, now I know. Don't care if you're ok, Your calls are just too late. So it's you I loved, But it's me I put above. Our relationship has died, And it's me who hasn't cried, So I can finally say…goodbye.

sometimes. I am a fool. I am unforgiveably foolish. I am foolishly unforgiveable. I can't seem to help myself. The strange thing is, I feel nothing but happiness, fulfillment, excitement, promise. He says he is "centering" What does that mean? Either I have never centered, or I have never been off-center. Either way I am missing out on something important. Aren't I?

You slip silently into the shadows of my mind. So I grab a bottle and toss it back Hoping you'll go away. You always manage to ruin my day No matter how far I go. You're always there waiting and watching. I'm drowning your memory tonight. Your smile, Your laugh, Your stupid voice. I grab the bottle drink some more. I feel the burn and ignore the pain. Why won't you go away? Your touch, Your kiss, The way you fuck. I hate that I still remember All these things about you. I'm drowning your memory tonight. It's been a year But I can't forget The days we shared or the nights we spent. I don't regret one thing. I just want to forget.

If I could get inside your head, Maybe then I'd understand, Why you make me feel so stupid! You pull me in then push me out, You raise me up and bring me down, Until my common sense is found! You don't care, because you're never there, This is the third time, And your last time I'm saying goodbye! I ain't ever coming back to you, I see through what you're trying to do! A broken heart each time, But you don't mind, I'm in pain, but it's all just fun and games… With you! You only care about yourself, Your heart goes out to no one else, I thought I could be the one to help! But now I see you can't be saved, You're heading off the other way, And I refuse to do the same! Surrounded in a premises, The moment so promiscuous, I know there's no forgiveness, So I'll build you up so tall, And then I'll glower as you fall, Break you 'til there's nothing left at all!