Lusty Desire's blog: "Poems"

You are like the diamond You glimmer and glow And shine so brightly Some, like me, draw close To feel your warmth, your heat Only to find none You are like the diamond You are bright and strong But you have no warmth, or love It's a terrible game To play with people's hearts Like mine You are like the diamond You will last longer than most But you will have no love No warmth to back up that bright light So what kind of life will it be? Besides long? Will you regret it someday? Regret being so much like the diamond Regret being so cold And look for me A find me gone? Can I ever leave? No, I can never leave you I am drawn to this cold light This false sense of warmth you give I keep wishing and hoping That someday, you will give warmth But, this will never be Diamonds last forever

As we lay there quiet I was reminded of all the reasons why I lust you Your smile, and the way it teased at me seductively Your laugh, and the way it tempted me Your eyes, and the way they seem to hypnotize me As we sat there silent I was reminded of all the reasons why I love you Your smile, and the way it brings such life into me Your laugh, and the way it makes everything okay Your eyes, and the way they seem to read my thoughts As we stand here now I am reminded of all the reasons why I hate you Your smile, and the way it confuses me Your laugh, and the way it seems to mock me Your eyes, and the way they can look into mine and not feel a thing

A warm sensation fills my body My heart races with every touch The softness of your voice soothes My soul As I lay there hoping the moment Will never end Calling out for you Praying that you'll never let me go The sensation so strong I can no longer feel my body Slowly I fade in and out of reality In an instant the warm sensation Fades away My heart empty My soul torn apart Lying there; wondering where I went Wrong Calling out for you, only to find there is no answer My mind invaded with thoughts So cruel and unrefined The sensation of fear of what's to come Slowly the reality over powering The lust and fantasy Leaving me empty Confused on how to think or feel The loneliness I feel So wretched and compelled Betrayal to myself Revealing the terrors of my love

It's gone What's gone? My mind? Soul? No, I'm fine Not really Deep inside, something is missing The love and tender kissing She walked out herself Now all I do is talk to myself in the mirror, with my reflection My heart is dead Soon it will make a resurrection Once the wounds heal And I'm loved for real A type of love I can feel But nobody loves me Nobody cares Nobody loves me That nobody is me I can't love myself because no one does I'm all alone and no longer what I once was But the only thing that keeps me alive Is knowing that the next day, it might all change For the best And that "nobody" becomes somebody

I have a wall around my heart He is tearing it down piece by piece. My head is spinning. My heart is racing. I feel the tension as the brawl begins inside. Confusion over comes me. I want to let him in. Lust over comes me. I want to feel his touch. Excitement over comes me. I want him near. Anticipation over comes me. Wanting to see what's in store. I am fighting these feelings. A broken heart is my fear. The battle rages on. A battle I'm not going to win. He is tearing it down piece by piece.