Absinthe xFAFOx's blog: "Poems"

Do you know what it's like to be me? To be the nice girl? The one who everyone knows and trusts? That is what I hate i don't want to be the nice girl that everyone trusts inside me i am lonely the outcast that no one trusts i'm the outsider that hides deep inside deep inside myself so i say to myself that no one likes me it's all a lie a lie deep inside deep inside of everyone so now i want to die and get rid of this lie cause no one knows what it's like to be me

Why do i do what i do? why do i hurt myself? cutting, squealing? am i mad? am i sad? i don't know mixed feelings messed up to scared to talk someone help HELP! i screwed up messed up my life now i pay the price cure me someone why do i hurt myself? why?

Why do I feel like this? Anger Inside Don't know what to feel or what to say kill me now i want to die right now don't know how to stay alive friends all laugh at me because of what i have to say people see me and say how but when i look in the mirror i ask myself why i want to be heard but no one will listen i want to be seen but no one will look why do i feel this way why do i say cut cut cut someone help me please i don't know what to do or say people laugh and people cry and others die i want to die i wonder if anyone will miss me i think not no one cares about me and no one ever will people say that i'm only a kid but i will prove them wrong they can't stand the sight of me i stick out like a sore thumb will people care or will they bother i'm just a child to them i think at night cut cut cut

you said everything was perfect you said everything was good. as long as i was there. but myself was not happy. too many secrets locked away too hard to speak them you did not ask of what i wanted you did not ask of what i thought you did without asking you did what you wanted a constant fight between us rages something that will never end you said i was the one you said it was ment to be but you were wrong it wasn't supposed to last the great raven came and told me so he knows best for i have known the great raven for years and trust him well and i stand by him throughout the sands of time knowing that one day i'll find the truth the right person i know his eyes are brown now but when i find him, they'll be emerald green he is my love the great raven told me so for he always knows best