vhkh is Laughing Out Loud's blog: "poems"

Where are you in this world of worlds? Me? I am a single girl.. Before you pity me and sigh.. gimme a sec and I'll tell u why. Happy couples I always see... Pretending to be happier than me. But behind that door its such a treat... To know life sucks between the sheets. I may not get the 3 legged racer... But I would prefer a shot with a scotch and dry chaser... "I hate my life" I hear you say. When all you have to do is walk away. Men are full of the illusion, That they don't need to make a contribution, However much to their distress, You can go out an get some in a mini dress. They're a dime a dozen, thick on the floor, and when you are through with them, there will be more, So get a real man who will cater... Or go out and and baby,show off your style You want a sex life that will give u satifaction, Not another bloody child. They say have fun,get laid, and fornicate... So why do so many masturbate? I am aware and I guess you have heard, But I will tell you again... Something that you already know, Batteries are cheaper than men.

I sit in peaceful harmony... 'neath a gum tree,tall and grand... The wind plays gently with my hair.. as my toes play in the sand.. The trickling of the little stream... as it flows across the rocks.. makes my mind drift off to dream.. As if time stands still or stops. My mind goes to a time long passed.. To a place I'll not forget... To him...the only man I have loved, Of when he and I first met. I was young and foolish..barely grown.. my heart still in my hands... A man came to my parents place... And I thought.."Oh what a man!" He was working for my father.. on a station way out west... Lots of men had come and gone... but this one passed my test. When he smiled his face became so bright.. His eyes shone dark and warm... I felt when I was by his side.. I'd never come to harm. He made me laugh and made me cry... In the time that he was there... I gave him my heart I don't know why.. And he gave me love and care. We married when I turned 18, Our love was strong and true... We lived in perfect harmony... In all we set out to do. But one day this lovely man of mine, Failed to come home to me... I was so frightened and wondered where could my Darling be? But then the police came to my door, To tell me they had found... A crumpled car beside the road... and my Darling on the ground. My man was gone,he died that day, And now I sit and dream... Many years have passed me by... But I will always think of him. He is in my heart forever more... No man can take his place... I never go to sleep at night... Without a vision of his face. Darkness falls upon me... as I sit beside this stream... And my darling is in every thought... and every single dream. I wake myself and walk for home... Along the lonely track... And my man,he walks beside me.. He always walks me back.. I still smile each time I think of him... I still cry when I miss him so.. And to me he never left my side... And you know how I know? I still feel his breath...can hear his heart, At night when I am sleeping... I dream his touch..we are never apart.. But I always wake up weeping.

It came in the night a poem by Susan Riley I wake,my heart thumping in my throat, A noise has silence,broken, As I slept amidst a dream, A voice came in the night, And lingered,words unspoken. Icy fingers down my spine, I felt them as I left my slumber, Cold sweat on my trembling brow, Blood is rushing in my ears.. Sounds like roaring thunder. Tears have soaked my frightened face.. I don't know why it's so.. I don't understand this fear in me.. It came to me so suddenly, But do I want to know? In the darkness can I see.. A form that floats in the doorway? I feel like something is watching me.. And I'm not certain what it is.. But I wish it would go away.. The figure moves towards me.. a cloudy floating mist.. Advancing slowly toward my bed.. Thunder crashing in my heart... I'm silently screaming,"What is this?" This is a ghost I see before me.. I am convinced that it is so... Gliding thru my bedroom... Shining in the darkness.. A whitish golden glow.. A kaleidescope,like shattered glass, Filling up the room, Envelopes my body, like a chilling breeze upon me.. Illuminates the gloom. This entity overwhelms me, A story it must tell, Is sending me a message, A reason for its being.. Why it lingers in this hell. I am taken by it's sadness, Saddened by its fear, my heart is aching for this being, that used to be a soul on earth, but is now just partly here. It comes to meet me every night, And I try to understand, But as time goes on, It less fears and cries.. With me to hold its hand.

The Tantrum By Susan Riley I feel the storm coming... building inside me... welling... Ready to ooze from my very pores... I want to explode in a wave of destruction.. and I do... I swear at first... Thru clenched teeth... my fury rising into a fireball inside of me... My body tenses... I cry...in anger and desperation.. My heart races.. I begin to hit the walls... breaking skin on my knuckles... unfeeling... The scream rises... from a moan... it builds momentum... louder and louder... til the pitch is just right... sending those around me running for cover.. my face turns crimson.. my nostrils flare like those of a wild horse... fearing the rope... my face is a flood of tears... I fight the urge to leap off the roof of my house... I fight so hard that I tire myself out... I fall in a blubbering heap... on the floor where I was standing... My sobbing waning into softness... I lay there.. Almost catytonic.. It is over... I am soothed by the flames of fury..

Footprints in the Sand How did you get here? How did you get inside my heart? How did you make me feel like this? Make me feel that of me you are part. I am scared of what I'm feeling, Scared that my feelings are just mine, That you don't feel it too, That I am being foolish and feelings are benign. I want you, But what if you don't want me too? Am I bangin my head on a brick wall? God I dont know what else to do. It keeps me awake at night, Wondering if what I say or do is wrong, Worried I might scare you away, Although I feel it's with me that you belong, I dont want to need you, Just want you with every fibre of my being, Want to feel my hand in yours, Want to feel that I'm your everything. I am selfish, I want you for my self alone, Want you to fill the void u have made in my heart, And for you and I to be one. I live to hear you say my name, as your lips gently brush my skin, My heart beats faster when I hear your voice, Like a torrent rushing within. I have let my feelings get out of my hands, I hope you can understand, That what I am feeling is strong and real, Not just footprints in the sand.

You say you love me, But if it were true, You would move mountains, Walk thru hot coals Do almost anything to prove that you do. But you tell me That I am the one that must swim against the tide, I am the one that must change my life, Just for the priviledge of being by your side. There you sit, In your ivory tower with hands in your pockets, Looking down on me.. Wondering why I am not there yet, Because you snapped your fingers ages ago, And I should have responded instantly. But I WOULD move mountains, and walk thru hot coals And fight the tide for the touch of your breath, But it would be much better to meet you halfway, And have you want me and love me, and be thinking of me... But you don't so there is nothing left. Because words are just words, And talk is just talk, but proof that you love me is all that I crave, And I would cry for you, Die for you, Pull the stars out of the sky for you, But never,ever,will I be your slave.

It's Love..... by Susan Riley It glows,in the darkness of the night, It shows,when everything is all right, It floats,when you want the closeness of the sky, It soars,When your heart wants to fly. It dreams,when reality is gone, It sleeps,and wakes to the beauty of the morn, It glistens like moonlight on the sea, It breaks away when your heart wants to be free, It is love,this beauty that surrounds, It is passion,that has no restricting bounds, I feel it,when I am with the one that I desire, And with this feeling,my soul is set afire. It gives,when you have given all you can, It's the chemistry,between a woman and her man.

Build a bridge By Susan Riley Many times have I been told... Build a bridge... Put your feelings back on hold..and.. build a bridge... When my heart was breaking... My tears like rain... was told to build a bridge... again... I have always been there for everyone.. and they all know.. I always put everyone else first... It's always been so.. But when I am aching... and need a friendly ear... I find I am alone with my tears... they say things should not affect me so... I should build a bridge.. That I am too tough for tears to flow... So I build a bridge... So I bury my feelings deep inside.. And build my bridge.. And my breaking heart I try to hide... Under my bridge? And I smile and take it on the chin... a clean,sharp hit... And life goes on and I'm still here.. And I build my bridge... And get over it...