Truth Trust No One's blog: "poems"

The whole time you were with me You wanted him, The promises you made to me You wanted them for him, The moments I was happy Should have never happened, When you held me You wish I was him, Looking in my eyes Saying that lie: "I love you" You thought of him, My plans for our happy life were nothing They never meant anything from the beggining, You never wanted to try with me, But you will put everything you have To make him happy, Now I sit here in this cold room Dying inside, Because I gave my all, Every fucking ounce of me, And none of it made a bit of difference Because I am not him.

If you listen close enough you can hear my heart breaking into the million pieces you once held together and when you look close enough you can see the damage you do within me making me weak and frail up against the hate and disproving words you spit at me with every syllable of needless cynicism that you say I crumble under the weight didn't you know you are supposed to be the one catching me not letting me fall

I’ve been on the receiving end a lot in my lifetime, I know how it feels alone in the moonshine. When someone lays down a hand for you to hold, You believe them, believe anything you’re told. Then you see the truth, what have they done? You thought you were their life, their number one But you were proved wrong, you’re just someone that came along A broken record, playing the same old song. When you move on, you have the fear to commit You’ve been through so many girls, heartbreakers, it’s hard to forget The pain, suffering, that you’ve been through, But you have to get over all this, become a better you. Wake up, don’t live in the past, you have a brand new start A bright, better life, a life without the dark. I’ve grown up, learned through my mistakes. I’ll find the right girl, search, for as long as it takes.

Do not stand by my grave and weep for I'm not there, I do not sleep, I am a thousand winds that blow, I am the diamonds glint on snow, I am the sunlight on ripened grain, I am the gentle autumn's rain, When you awaken in morning’s hush I am the swift uplifting rush of quiet birds in circle flight, I am the soft stars that shine at night, Do not stand by my grave and cry I am not there I did not die, For in your heart I am still alive.