Becky Jo's blog: "Poems wrote for my daughter"

Hole. Sep/11/05 There is a hole in my heart You can not see it but it's there. A hole so deep it hurts But it doesn't show. Sometimes it bleed's But you can't see it Till it's to late And I've let go. This hole in my heart Will not be filled till You say the words I long to hear. I LOVE YOU MOMMY!

Wish. Sep/11/05 There isn't a day, Something Or someone goes by I don't Think about you. The things I hope for, The way I imagon you turning out Your eye's how bright they were The first time I held you, Yourbig smile when I sang to you. The thing's I wouldn't do to got back, back to that one day in time. To beable to hold you again And tell you everything is all right. To tell you how much you mean to me. How I wish with my whole heart and soul I could tell You everyting is all right When you were scared or lost And needed help to find your way. I wish I could have given you Everything you needed in live But most of all I wish you love! Love you baby! Love always Mommy

Feelings 9/11/05 These feelings I have Are sad but yet I smile. How I felt is scared But yet I laught to Hide my true feelings. How I view thing's is A blur like when you First wake up and Rub your eyes to make Everything clear again. Should I feel this sad Knowing your always Going to be mine, And no one can take That from me? I don't know much but I do know how much I feel and what I feel Is love for you always!

Why? Sep/11/05 Why do I feel so sad Like I've given up on something I truely love? Why do I hate so much When love is all I have to give? Why haven't I moved on When there isn't anything To hold on to, but a picture] Of your smile? Why do I feel so lost and Have the feeling I'll never be found? Is there hope or is anything Ever going to make sence To me again? When I can't seem to find The answers to the questions I love to be answered? Why most I go on like nothing's happened and everything is all right when it isn't? Will I ever be able to move on?

How I feel there is no words. Sep/11/05 All I see is darkness like being in a tunal or blind and can only feel things. I remember seeing light the day I held you in my arm so tight. But it all was taken from Me the day I let you go. Will I ever see light again Is there that posability? Will I ever feel like I am truely loved or understood for what I've done? Or should I even let myself be loved, When I'm in so much pain? This is how I feel!

Smile like you've never smiled before. Laugh like no one can hear you. Live like your going to die tomorrow. Love like you never loved before. But always know I'm always smiling with you!