OK ive been working my ass off trying to find a fucking job and no one wants to hire me, i take out my piercings and look proffesional when i go in to fill out apps and still no one calls me back or is hiring at the moment .....i need the fucking cash my sister is a fucking nazi bitch with a power pole stuck up her ass and is making us all (my family) move when we cant afford it , im a great artist and every one tells me i need to be a tatto artist and to go get my apprentice ship but i cant afford 3000 plus dollars for one out here , im just trying to make 2500 so that i can get the fuck out of here and to my bfs and he offered to come and get me and all that but i told him no cause i want to be able to do this on my own and im failing i feel like such a fucking failure ,i went to a day labor place for like a month and half every fucking day 4 am to 12:30 in the afternoon (when they closed for luch) waiting for work and they only sent me out 3 times 3!!! and all i want is a fucking chance , i can paint im good artist ill do painting for people what ever they want custom shit really nice and send it tot hem for cash , im trying to do anything to make some cash i went and stood on the mall doing art and selling it for a few bucks just to afford a pack of ciggerettes i dont know what the fuck else to do ....