Wickie's blog: "Random shit"

You had me all of me but you picked another bitch over me... I forgave you when you ran back to me.. Started fresh and all those things you said you would prove to me... Shit hit the fan for you I was there trying to help you understand you and show you I care for you... But again you left me there alone feeling stupid because of you. Found out there were a bunch of other girls along with me too... Now you wanna be mad cuz I moved on from you... But you already found an 18 year old girl to use... I'm done over it and all that shit I did for you with you because of you keep it.. Maybe it'll help remind you to be decent... Remind you once you had everything you said you ever needed.. Just remember that because it's not your bed I'll sleeping in. Love I got from someone who isn't behind my back creeping. Loyalty and love is what I'm holding on too and keeping.. I ain't mad but I'm not ill talking just don't think I'm ever gonna let you come back in walking .. 

If I asked you for the sun would you light me a candle.

If I asked you for the sky would you take a walk with me out side.

If I asked your for a kiss would you close your eyes.

If I asked you to be mine would you walk away and make me cry.

Do you stop too think of anyone but yourself.

So self important you can barely see the whole other world that surrounds you.

Blind to the love others give that you so greedly  you take and never take the time to appreciative.

A good woman by your side who was so easly cast aside.

Her face never pretty enough for someone so vein. 

‎"How do you tell someone how you feel with out making a fool of yourself..How to you say what's in your heart without fear of rejection..How to you tell a girl she's the most beautiful thing your eyes have ever seen.. Her laugh brightens my days.. Her smile makes all my fears wash away.. Only thing I love more is the way she says my name.."

I could tell you a million things to win your heart

I could tell you a thousand lies to set me apart

I could tell you a story about how your eyes look so pretty bright blue

Tell you a fairy tale you know one of me and you

Sing you a love song  a ballad of a love so true

None of these things could ever really express my feelings for you

you ever what a broken heart sounds like

beating in a chest full of rage and violence 

what do you do when the one heart broken is you

I hate the way you smile

even more the way you laugh

ihate the way you look at me and even more they it feels

i hate the way you makes me laugh even when i want to cry

i hate the way you talk to me like im the only one you see

i hate having thoughts of you and the feelings you bring too me

i hate the fact i can't hold you a night a feeling we both try so hard to fight

i hate how deeply i feel for you and wish for something that may never be

i mostly hate the fact i can't tell you just how much you mean too me..

If I told you what you ment to me would it have made you stay

If I told you that I loved you would you have told me you flet the same

So many thing I wanted to say too I now whisper too the winds

Iscream form the pain of missing you tell me when will this end

I can't help dreaming of you you never leave my thougghts

My heart aches for a man that I never had but lost

A heart breaks at the thought of you. 

A girl cries over the pain of missing you. 

A whisper in the wind that is meant for you : your my best friend and I'm in love with you.....

Words so pretty pretty lost to the silence....

The final sleep of a life taken too soon....

When he looks back now do you see the pain in her eyes so crystal so clear....

Drowning in your guilt we hear his cries...

Why couldn't you tell her what you hid so deep down inside...

The love he ran from...

He screams to the skies for you: you were my best friend and I loved you....

 Overwhelming guilt  overwhelming hate of himself  inside hes already died...

Forever with her  in the eternal sleep...

The power of words forever  taken for granted..

Will your words be the one too save..

or will you say nothing and watch  as the ones you love slip away...

Boy you got it all wrong I'm not out to make you love me you did that all on your own...

I'm making sure you wont ever forget me...

Like a drug boy you'll come back for more... 

Those other girls maybe be fun for a time but boy I've got what you need...

You bring my love and I'll bring your supply...

An iv of me straight into you...

Only I can end this pain  scaring us so deep...

I honestly try but then I see that look in your eyes...

Is this love really worth all the trouble...

You can't stay away too long yet  you have the urge to run free...

Too hide from the devil inside which I control you ...

Only the devils in you too...

Like a drug boy only I'm the cure...

So pretty are the lies he tells..

held together so well..

don't look closer you might not like the mess you see..

so numb is the life he leads..a heartless man with no soul to save..

do you enjoy the game you play..

does she know you make all the rules..

do you break her spirt day by day..or do you do it all at once..

So pretty is the mask she wears..

you'd never guess she'd killed a man..

so sweet are lips from which she will tempt you..

so calm and collected she would seem..

the mess of girl daddy loved too much..

guess he never saw the rage she held behind that pretty face..y

our gone never again will she feel that pain..

I used to be so pretty..

I've gone mad yet I feel so sane..

a shell of who i was..

you ruined my life..

but dont worry baby..

only wanted to see you happy..

so slowly does the old me die..

so dead inside..so soon the zombie will rise..

an empty shell..but don't worry baby..

we'll be alright..

Screaming into my silence slowly I turn into a monster of hate. 

Your body so willing you give up to me . 

You dirty boy and your love for the dead.

How he craves how I hunger for a taste of him.

Eyes blood shot my body aches with the pain.

Knowing I'll ruin your life boy.

Yet you still hang around.

You're a dirty boy with a love of the dead.

Growing wildy savage losing myself slowly.

Holding my hand forever my man.

You dirty boy and your love for the dead.

The more the monster grows the more your lust shows.

Body broken dirty and bare and still you eyes I can feel your stare.

Silly dirty stupid boy and your loving the dead.

The change taken hold nothing left but a shell of who I am.

Upon your body you wish I'd feed.

You love my hunger.

You love the need I have of you.

Most of all you love the pain.

You filthy dirty boy your love of the dead brought about the death of you.

anger is my own best friend..

embraced by hate..

consumed by my own rage..

I burn..

slowly building agony..

the pain is the only emotion i feel..

use to bleed to feel alive..

now only numbness left.

nothing left to fill this void inside..

the endless sleep..

wishing you would just die..

maybe it would justify this reason i cry..

heartless is the one who claimed to love..

guess it should be of no surprise you were nothing but lies..

my anger will burry me alive..

but at least i'll survive..

burying the memory of you deep inside..

bitter 

sconred 

angry 

alone

heartbroken 

cold

ashamed of what i've become...

silent whispers like silent dreams

awake from the dreams and a world so sareen

reality lacks the pure joy and bless 

awake to silent sobs silent screams of the love i miss

hate to linger in a world where you don't exist 

i could numb my pain but it doesn't do the trick

tears stain my check thinking of the days you were here with me

everything reminds me of you 

so hard to find a reason too keep going 

waiting in agany for my final sleep to be at peace

waiting too see your face again 

i long to hear your angels song