SEEKING SILENCE
In the darkness I turn,
Feeling the shades blazing through me
Icy cold burning my skin
The embers of fear and rejection charging their passage
Through my veins the ice forms
Feeling cutting deeper, let it stop
Hatred at the place to which I've arrived
Feeling powerless to leave,
Will bleeding away, want to sleep
Crying away the pain until nothing remains
Just a hollow inside, where happiness lay once
Cavernous feeling, no will to do anything
Not even eat, food as lacklustre as life
Sleep awhile now, empty of pain
Until thoughts creep back in
Finding the knives to bury deeper
Seeking blades to show my suffering
While those around hardly notice
Too busy to notice the slow decay
The destruction of momentum and energy
Happiness caged, held away
Wish for death
Wish for release
Wish to be taken away from it all
Nobody comes.
Still the hurt remains
Still the shadows remain
Still haunted by thoughts unwanted
Left lying, curled foetal
As if that could shield the hurt
As if you could turn away from it all
The old love's ecstatic edge
Turned like a knife to wound deep
Somebody take it away
Release me to peace
Forever.
