you cant get back wasted time's blog: "poems and such"

My Life changed, the very moment I found out That you had passed away. I couldn't stop it; there was nothing I could say. You've touched my life so deeply to a point you will never know, I try to think about you when I am feeling down and low. Sometimes when my day gets hard I will think about your beautiful smile and if I listen hard enough I will hear your voice after a while. It's you who give me a reason to go on with my day, and now if I want to see you I'll bow my head and pray. I catch myself looking for you still, In the halls and at your front door, but when I call your name there is no reply any more! I never thought a day would come where we would be apart, God has you in his keepings, we have you in our hearts. Life will go on, but never will be the same, your beautiful smile is gone, but it will always remain. You're our angel from up above. You'll always be missed, but most importantly... loved. Just one more minute, God, is all I ask- why can't you give her back; it seems like such a simple task. I guess people are right when they say God only takes the best, I know enough now that you're peacefully at rest. It's hard for me to understand why He would choose you to take away, and if I ever faced him this is what I would say... It's so UNFAIR, there were so many words that were left unsaid and debts left undone, and, Amanda, Your life in heaven has only just begun. She was heaven sent, is the best answer I could find, Always loving and kind. God has left us with an eternal ache in our hearts when you sent an angel to her and said, "Come with me it's your time to part." I'm always thinking about that short time we had to spend, you'll always be with me; you'll always be my best friend! No time would be long enough to spend with you, and what we are going to do without you here... we have no clue. I know you're gone now, but will never be left out; we will never forget you- in that there is no doubt. Although you're in a new place I'll always remember you, and remember your grace. There are times I swear I know you're here; I can feel you so near to me, yet, you're so far away! I can't wait until that one sweet day Where I can talk to you again! You've brightened my day with a little wave and a smile! There is so much more I can say, but right now I will say, "see you in the afterlife Because good-byes are forever. In hopes I will see you again, I know right now you're looking down on us with a tear in your eye thinking about that horrible day where you were forced to say good-bye." I MISS YOU AMANDA. YOU WERE MY BEST FRIEND. YOURE UP THERE NOW DOING THE WORK OF THE LORD. YOUR FRIENDS MISS AND LOVE YOU SWEETIE.

Star light, star bright?? Have you heard that verse before? I wished upon it every night, To send me my amore. Now I am much older, And wiser, so they say. My heart is growing colder, But I still await that day. Try as I may To stay strong and prevail, In the end, comes that day When my romances fail. Cant say for sure Why this roads been so rough. My intentions are pure. Is that not enough? Hey, true love, my soul mate, Someday, Ill know who you are. So patiently Ill wait And wish upon that star.

Laying in my bed thinking of you, knowing you're not thinking of me. I wonder if anyone is going through what Im going through. The days we had together went by so fast. I know you don't love me anymore but I still love you. I want you to hold me close and kiss me through the night again. You don't realize what you have done. I am going through so much- not to have you by my side. You are my world, life and true love. You don't know what I am going through. I love you so much. I never knew what love was until I found you. When you told me it was over, I cried myself to sleep and I still do. My heart aches every day knowing were not together anymore. All those times you said you loved me, I wish they'd come back. I gave all I could to keep you but I guess it wasn't enough. I can't find the words to make you understand how much I love you. When the days got darker my heart began to ache even more. The day you left me was the worst day in my life.

It is so hard... to find an honest heart. To find someone so true, someone to be faithful to you. To have unending love, someone to hold on and never give up. Someone to be there in the end, to be your best friend. As I lay me down to sleep. I pray the Lord my soul to keep. That I shall not die, without having true love in my life. I have searched high and low- I search wherever I go. Love only lets me down... Love never comes around. I make myself think that I will be alright, even though there aren't two arms holding me tonight. I have wished upon so many falling stars, but none came true for my heart. Is there something wrong with me? I find it hard to believe. That there can't possibly be, someone out there who can love me. Love I have in my dreams, but dreams don't mean anything, to my lonely, empty heart. Where do I start? Where do I turn? What lesson to learn? Where do I find that one love? Blessed by the man up above. So, I start the day with nothing new. Same old thing and same things to do. No one to share my willing heart. No one willing to give my love a start. So, I get used to the fact of being alone and returning to an empty home. No one there to ask how my day was... No one to say, "I love you," just because. It is so hard... to find an honest heart. To find someone so true, someone to be faithful to you. To have unending love, someone to hold on and never give up. Someone to be there in the end, to be your best friend.

Dont think I dont love you anymore Dont think I wonder what is this for Because nothing I say Will ever take away The fact that Im always thinking of you Because baby, I still love you Even though we dont talk much anymore It doesnt mean that Im closing the door Girl I miss you and your magic touch And although it seems weve grown far apart You are still the only girl in my heart Dont think I dont love you no more Dont think I wonder what is this for Because nothing I say Will ever take away The fact that Im always thinking of you Because baby, I still love you Dont sit in your room and cry Just because love seemed to pass us by I still want you with me till the end I always will think of you as more than just a friend I will never let go Baby this is so Its something you should know Never will you hear the words good-bye Until the day I die I may seem to like someone else But my heart will always be with you Dont you worry Im not in a hurry To leave anytime soon In my heart we will always be together Because I will love you forever

You're more than a friend, you're more to me than that. We've never really met but we got to know each other on chat. So, I'm not influence by your looks or what you've got, I don't know what kind of car you drive For all I know it may run hot. Some may say I don't know you at all But that's just not right, I know how I feel and you visit my dreams each night. I know the person you are that comes from within, And that's the person I love and will till the very end. So, I've never held you in my arms or even looked into your eyes, But it is with you, I hope, my future lies. Many miles may part us but the appalachians are just mountains I know you are the one for me 'cause of this deep, heartfelt emotion.

The clouds are out to match my mood for I feel gray because of you. The loneliness and heartache are near; you're carrying out, what is my worst fear. Every day I tell you I love you, and I make an effort to somehow show you, but you blow me off. You have better things to do than love the one who is loving you. I gave and gave- with nothing in return. You lit the fire, and I got burned. Why can't I run? Turn the other way? Why don't I leave? Why do I stay? I feel so abused, I feel so alone. The things that have been can't be undone, But still I stay. I love you... and deep down, I hope you love me too!