PunkyPants's blog: "Poem"

I smell the struggle of yesterdays problems like an old worn out newspaper I can almost taste the bitterness of my own self rebuttal I remember the days of unkind words and they were only spoken from my own mind I hear this angry voice and I know that It only wants to fail but I myself have found the fury I have found the blessings of finding my strength and Not just the moment of strength that I see every day in you I finally have found the Orb of light inside me Inside my head, inside my heart I have found my fury unleashing it from the bitterness and Calming it to the peacefulness this peacefulness I call It Love... Self Love Love In Me And Love In Thee...

[ Blinded by the Bitterness ] As the shadows overwhelm me My Days and nights go old Your love is digging me deeper Im sinking into your whirlpool My heart is bleeding, my soul is weeping Your Love Just Tears me up inside Your Heart is cold but your soul is colder My Heart is bleeding, bleeding into you now Im growing more to hate you Your turning into my bitter regret I spit at your comfort Cause its all bullshit My heart is bleeding, my soul is weeping Your Love Just Tears me up inside Your Heart is cold but your soul is colder My Heart is bleeding, bleeding into you now Your Love is just a cover up For games and alibies Your love is just a hatred Making me so insane My heart is bleeding, my soul is weeping Your Love Just Tears me up inside Your Heart is cold but your soul is colder My Heart is bleeding, bleeding into you now

Don't ask me to stay because I won't, don't ask me to love you because I can't. I've tried so hard to make myself love you, but you can't make your heart feel something it won't. Why do you ask me to stay? I already told you I have to leave. Don't tell me you love me, I can't handle hearing that. I'm so confused about what I want, all I know is that I need to go. A chance to think, to sort my thoughts, that's what I really need right now. That chance will come very soon, and I know I'll be doing alot of thinking then. Maybe I'll realize that I really do need you, that I've just been ignorant these past few months. Then again, I could find what I want, what I've only dreamed of... When I find my destiny, I'll let you in on it. For now I just have a favor- a simple thing to ask you- Don't ask me to stay, for I can't, don't ask me to love you, for I won't.

Don't ask me to stay because I won't, don't ask me to love you because I can't. I've tried so hard to make myself love you, but you can't make your heart feel something it won't. Why do you ask me to stay? I already told you I have to leave. Don't tell me you love me, I can't handle hearing that. I'm so confused about what I want, all I know is that I need to go. A chance to think, to sort my thoughts, that's what I really need right now. That chance will come very soon, and I know I'll be doing alot of thinking then. Maybe I'll realize that I really do need you, that I've just been ignorant these past few months. Then again, I could find what I want, what I've only dreamed of... When I find my destiny, I'll let you in on it. For now I just have a favor- a simple thing to ask you- Don't ask me to stay, for I can't, don't ask me to love you, for I won't.

Baby let me see the way your eyes meet mine Let me read your lips so well defined The way you make my eyes swell with desire I know your reading me Touching me tasting me Stretching out your hands to me aren't you baby My heart is starting to flutter Wildly baby I wonder what you're feeling Are you feeling me too? Man I think I'm beginning to cave into you My heart wants you my mind says no Should i stay or should i go Allow me to find a way to your heart Sometimes I'm unsure of the beauty i possess I'm scared that I'm going to fade away Shrivel like a prune and wither away Your heart is so sweet and so pure Do you care about me as much as you say you do? Do you read me, can you follow my fury? Do you see the emotions running through my head? Sometimes I think I forget to breathe when I'm around you I feel like this whirlpool is surrounding me Cuddling me Feeding me Touching me Tasting me Allowing so much energy to run through me I can feel you I can taste you I can feel you pumping thru my skin Like a second blood pining thru my body I can smell you Your aroma fills my nose It's sweet and fills my flared nose with sweetness of you I feel your spirit running its fingers thru my hair I desire the touch and the taste of you under my fingertips I relish at the thought of you desiring me as much as I desire you At times when I can't sleep at night I feel the warmth of your touch all over Your soul wraps me like a blanket When I'm cold and scared your soul connects with Mine and fills me with rays of energy My heart pounds and flutters when I feel your touch It's like my energy finally found a reason to smile From what I was once bound by I am now enlightened with a motivation The colors of your fury which lead my soul To desires only known to gods and goddesses I followed your sprit in the wake of the Morning dew which awaited me in the morning light The light calmed me shuddering my soul into frenzy A fury that could fuel my fire and make me whole once again I was scared at first But now I welcome it with a heated passion of my own Friendships of golden rules Which make up the beacon of our lives? The walls which hold up as a barrier Are melded into the comfort of having you here Tearing back the shutters that hold up in my mental The barrier of respect and trust. I lay here comforting myself With thoughts of you and thoughts brand new I think of you with golden locks of fallen stream I wish this conflict inside my mind would flutter away I don't wish death over success Help me become the wisdom I know I can be At times when I cant sleep at night I feel the warmth of your touch all over Your soul wraps me like a blanket When I’m cold and scared your soul connects with Mine and fills me with rays of energy My heart pounds and flutters when I feel your touch It’s like my energy finally found a reason to smile From what I was once bound by I am now unlighted with a motivation The colors of your fury which lead my soul To desires only known to gods and goddesses I followed your sprit in the wake of the Morning dew which awaited me in the morning light The light calmed me stuttering my soul into frenzy A fury that could fuel my fire and make me whole once again I was scared at first But now I welcome it with a heated passion of my own Friendships of golden rules Which make up the beacon of our lives? The walls which hold up as a barrier Are melded into the comfort of having you here Tearing back the shutters that hold up in my mental That barrier of respect and trust. I lay here comforting myself With thoughts of you and thoughts brand new I think of you with golden locks of fallen stream I wish this conflict inside my mind would flutter away I don’t wish for death over success For Help me become the wisdom I know I can be