bellelinka's blog: "poem"

well. i was a full out dike before, i liked men. only few knew this about me i have had four girlfriends in my life.. i have fucked up in my past. i did cheat on my boyfriend when i was 17 years old this did hurt him bad. but he still is with me which i still have no idea why he would bother.. i guess hes nuts hey.. the oldest man i was with was 23 years old. when i was 16 years old this is wrong and yes i know now!! lol i knew my boyfriend since we were 13 years old we are now 21. and at the time i never would have thought we would end up having a baby together. this guy used to be my enemy who would of thought?? i have been cheated on before my very first boyfriend was 20 and i was 15 i was blind to all this cheating shit. lol but i was a virin some what! lol so of course i made him wait 6 months to get any haha but because of this guy.. hes the reason why i am the way i am today.. a hell of alot stronger then i was before then i went for the one im with now, with bad habits he changed my life he really showed me what its like to be in hell. haha but if it wasnt for him i would have lost my mind long time ago he was the reason why i breath now he raised me well lol this guy was real and at the time i was like yeah right just want pussy!! lol i gave him that i tried to leave and he wanted me to stay.. i wanted to stay to but i was scared becauses i was fucked in the head since day one.. we were engaged once. i fucked that one up too! hey babe, i really did quite the number hey. lol i know hes reading this. well yeah i just want peeps to know the truth before they think and assume shit. yeah i aint nice really im quite the cunt! # 1 bitch lol thats the way im going to stay so what u think of the weird shit in my life probably all normal for a chick lol.. well bye

well most of the time i stay home waiting for the arrival of my child. yes im 9 months pregnant and this is my second, my first my first was a baby boy named Nevada Jared G. he was 5 lbs. he was little but the heart break about that was hes kidneys were no good he didnt make 24 hrs. but im over that i really dont mind he is in a better place.. but now im on my second and this time i was told im healty as an oxe!! this one might be a girl but not sure, well atleast im not a teen mother i would have been it my son was still here im not to sure if i could even take care of a child when i was 17.. but here is my chance to shine lol bring on them diapers lol....

sex is a sin. kissing is a shame. boys have all the fun. while girls get blamed. one night of pleasure. 9 months of pain. 3 days in the hospital. with a baby to name. boys say ur cute. boys say ur fine. but when u have the baby. they say it aint mine. you might think im crazy. but take my advice. dont be a mother. before ur a wife. well this never happened to me but i just wanted to spread the word....