kyjbrd's blog: "poem"

HERE I SIT ALONE IN MY ROOM THOUGHTS CLOUD MY HEAD FEELING THE TORTURE FROM WITHIN CONSUMED BY THE FEELING OF DREAD BEEN CAUGHT BY A SPELL CAST UPON ME AN ANGEL OF DARKNESS HAS TAKEN MY SOUL A BEAUTY FROM THE DEPTHS OF MADNESS THINK I'M LOSING CONTROL A WOMAN FULL OF PASSION AND DESIRE JET BLACK HAIR AND BIG DARK EYES KISSES BURN SCORCHING TOUCH FILL MY HEART WITH MISERY AND HEAD FULL OF LIES CRIMSON FLOWS AS I AM FULLY DEVOURED SHE'S NOT HAPPY TILL SHE GETS EVERY DROP KNOWING I AM DOOMED FOR GIVING IN SOMEHOW I JUST CANT STOP MY PRAYERS ARE IN VAIN MY CRIES UNHEARD THE WICKED LOVE THAT I HAVE MYSELF BETRAYED SIN AND REGRET TOTALLY WASH OVER ME BUT STILL, I KNOW FOR HER LOVE I AM HER SLAVE 10-25-07 JAY ROGERS

My clip's empty 4 dead on the floor I'm reloading screaming who wants sum more Stealing the drugs n cash blood sprayed on my face My homies outside ready to torch the place Running with the wind I got nutting to lose Just another forgotten tomorrow the life I choose Catch me later we'll settle the score Blow what we got then go get sum more Crucify my enemies watch the fires burn high Make a mistake n cross my path then u die Aint no gangsta thug aint no mafia man Just a crazy hillbilly with a brand new plan Its not that Im incomplete Im un concerned Don't give a damn no lesson to learn I work for the reaper man got no body count But if I stacked them up Rushmore would be mount Don't need no drink no drug, don't need no sympathy Not asking for much just whats due to me Reaching with both hands taking what's mine Dont give a fuck bout Heaven or Hell, whatever is fine 5-27-06 JAY ROGERS

I'm searching for an Angel With a pair of dark brown eyes A smile I know is Heaven sent The kind that hypnotize I'm dreaming of that single kiss From your lips I so adore Taking my breath totally away What I have been yearning for Want to feel your tender touch Fingers caressing velvet skin My hands exploring freely Anticipation, can't wait to begin Hearts beating like thunder Our bodies innerlocked as one Calling down the glories of paradise Our supernova outshines the sun

IS A THORN WORTH THE BEAUTY IS THE PLEASURE WORTH THE PAIN IS A VELVET TOUCH WORTH THE SCARLET FLOW IS THUNDER AND LIGHTNING WORTH THE RAIN I'VE BEEN KISSED BY BEAUTIFUL PRINCESSES HEARD THEIR DADDY'S CALL FOR MY HEAD BEEN 3,000 MILES FROM HOME WONDERING WHO'S SLEEPING IN MY BED FELT THE KINDNESS OF STRANGERS KNOWN THE BETRAYEL OF CLOSE FRIENDS HEARD THE LIES AND PROMISES OF LOVERS SWEARING IT WOULD NEVER END DANCED IN ALLEYS AND MOUNTAINTOPS DOWN IN VALLEYS, AND GUTTES, AND STREETS PAVED IN GOLD SPENT COUNTLESS HOURS IN THE GYPSIE'S LAIR LISTENING TO THE STORIES BEEN TOLD COUNTLESS HORIZONS I HAVE CONQUERED ALL WITH ONE SINGLE THING IN SIGHT BE ABLE TO HOLD SOMEBODY WHO LOVES ME IN MY ARMS IN THE DEAD OF NIGHT I WILL CONTINUE MY FRUITLESS SEARCHES UNTIL MY SECRET LOVER IS FOUND THAT DAY MAY COME WHEN I HOLD HER I WILL KEEP LOOKING TILL THEY PUT ME IN THE GROUND

DON'T GIVE ME PROMISES ABOUT TOMORROW STILL FEEL THE PAIN OF YESTERDAY GRAND ILLUSIONS FROM YOUNGER YEARS THAT LIFE WS SUCH AN EASY GAME TO PLAY TOMORROW'S PROMISES TURN TO MEMORIES AS SHADOWS CHIP AWAY AT YOUR HEART FAIRWEATHER FRIENDS AND FOOLISH CHOICES MAKE YOU ILLFATED FROM THE START QUESTIONS ALWAYS REMAIN UNANSWERED THE ONES THAT BRING REAL PEACE OF MIND IS IT LOVE, OR MONEY AND POWER HOW TO GET ALONG IN A WORLD SO UNKIND LOCKED IN A PRISON CELL DOING TIME SENTENCED TO MISERY LONELINESS & STRIFE NO ONE WILL COME AND SET ME FREE AND FEEL THE SUNSHINE ONCE AGAIN IN MY LIFE PRAY TO THE LORD, IN THE DEAD OF NIGHT THAT THE ANGEL OF DEATH COME AND TAKE MY SOUL MY CURSE IS TO GO ON FOREVER WITH STORM CLOUDS IN THE DISTANCE, LISTENING TO THE THUNDER ROLL

GUIDE ME WITH A WHISPER, THAT COME HITHER SMILE LEAD ME WITH QUIET SEDUCTION TO YOUR LAIR TELL ME THE SPECIAL THINGS U NEED DONE REAL SOON TELL ME TO CUM AND IM ALREADY THERE SMOTHER U WITH KISSES, ALL ACROSS UR BACK MY CARESS SWEETLY GIVING YOUR BODY CHILLS EXPLORING YOUR TREASURES WITH HEATED INTENSITY YOUR ABOUT TO BELIEVE MY PASSION IS FOR REAL STARING INTO YOUR EYES AS I QUICKEN MY THRUSTS YOUR VOICE TREMBLING WITH RAPTURE AND DESIRE OUR BODIES LOCKED IN PERFECT RYTHEM AND MOTION BREATHLESS HEARTBEATS RESSOUNDING THE FURY AND FIRE CALLING OUT MY NAME WITH JUSTIFIED PLEASURE SENSATIONS FLOWING LIKE WAVES CRASHING DOWN MULTIPLE SPASMS FULL OF SEXUALITY'S INNER RELEASE FEVER PITCHED RUSHES COMING FROM ALL AROUND LIEING BACK IN CONTENTMENT, COVERED WITH LUST AND SWEAT ENJOYING THE SIMPLE MOMENT WE SHARE BETWEEN STROKING UR BODY, FEELING UR SATISFIED PURRS KNOWING THIS IS BETTER THAN THE SWEETEST OF DREAMS SHOWING YOU THE TRUE DEPTHS OF MY DESIRE TAKE YOU THERE AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN YOUR KISSES LIKE HONEY YOUR BODY PARADISE MIDNIGHT ANGEL TO COME AND SAVE ME FROM MY SINS 5-26-07 JAY ROGERS

ITS THE FIRST SATURDAY IN MAY!! U KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS!!! KY DERBY TIME!! WOO HOO!!!! THE WEATHER MIGHT BE NASTY BUT THE PARTY NEVER STOPS!!!! THIS WILL BE MY 17TH IN A ROW!!!!! I WILL BE IN THE IN FIELD WITH ALL THE OTHER 200,000 REGULAR JOES PARTYING DOWN!!!! MINT JULIPS TASTE LIKE SHIT BY THE WAY, BUT ITS TRADITION SO I WILL HAVE ONE ANYWAY!!! LOL!! MOSTLY BUDWEISER AND A FIFTH OF MAKER'S MARK!!! ITS A THREE HOUR DRIVE TO LOUISVILLE!!!! HOPE ALL HAS A GREAT WEEKEND!!!

HEY ITS TUES, JUST RAN OFF SOME JEHOVA'S WITNESSES!! LOL ABOUT 1:30 IN THE PM. I JUST LIKE TO TELL U ABOUT MY DAY!! I'M OFF GOT A CRAZY SCHEDULE SO ANYTIME IS THE WEEKEND FOR ME!! GOT SOME RIBEYES MARINATING!! YUM!! FOR LATER, SOME BEERS ICED DOWN. BOUT TO GO FISHING, IN THE REALLY WELL STOCKED POND IN MY BACK YARD!! ITS SEVENTY PLUS DEGRESS HERE IN SE KY!! BLUE SKIES!! GOT SOME LED ZEP IN THE BOSE STEREO AND SOON AS I CATCH A FEW FISH N CLEAN EM GONNA HAVE MY FAVORITE FRIENDS COME OVER AND DRINK SOME BEERS AND EAT LIKE ROMANS!!! THEN PROBABLY FINISHED GETTING HAMMERED AT A BUDDYS HOUSE SHOOTING POOL AND THROWING DARTS!!! HOPE U HAVE AS GOOD A DAY AS I AM ABOUT TO!!!! AS ALWAYS!!! JAY!!!

JUST LEFT THE ARMS OF AN ANGEL TO GIVE THE DEVIL HIS DUE HEAVY PRICES TO PAY FOR THESE VICES SELLING MY SOUL SEEMED LIKE THE THING TO DO DON'T KNOW HOW LONG I GOT 1,000 MPH AND THE DEVIL'S BEHIND THE WHEEL RUNNING WITH NO CONCERN OVER CONSEQUENCE GOT TO STAY FEELING THE WAY THAT I FEEL SPILLING BLOOD & ENDING LIVES IN MY WAKE OF DEVESTATION THE DEVIL'S SO PROUD OF HIS PRODIGY I'VE BECOME HIS FAVORITE CREATION I'M THE SUBJECT OF COUNTLESS PRAYERS BUT THERE'S JUST NO TURNING BACK THE DEVIL'S GOT ME ALL WIRED AGAIN I'M PRIMED FOR ANOTHER ATTACK THE SWEET TASTE KEEPS ME RUNNING KNOWING THE DEVIL'S WHIPERS R FULL OF LIES THE SINS OF MY PAST WILL ALWAYS HAUNT ME THE THRILL OF THE CHASE KEEPS ME MESMORIZED 1-14-7 JAY ROGERS

I LAY TO WASTE THE DREAMS I HAD FOOLISH DESIRES OF A MUCH YOUNGER MAN SETTLE IN THE NOTION IT ALL GOES BAD BELIEVING THE LIES TRYING TO UNDERSTAND SACRIFICIAL EMOTIONS I BURY INSIDE TELLING MYSELF THAT ITS NOT ALL LOST FEARING THE SHADOWS I RUN AND HIDE BREAKING FREE NO MATTER THE COST LISTENING TOO LONG TO THE RAMBLINGS OF FOOLS MISGUIDING ME WITH THE PATH I TAKE PAVING THE WAY WITH BROKEN RULES ALWAYS MAKING THE SAME MISTAKES NO COMFORT IN THE DEAD OF NIGHT NOT MUCH CONSOLATION WITH THE DAWN ONE THING IS TRUE AND RIGHT WITHOUT A DOUBT TIME KEEPS MOVING ON 3-3-7 JAY ROGERS