Daydreamer's blog: "Daydreaming Blogspot"

December 30, 2009

My heart aches,

My stomach churns,

I am losing you,

We are losing you.

I am trying so hard,

I don’t know what to do.

I love you!

More than you will ever know.

My heart belongs only to you.

I will do whatever it takes,

I wish you would see,

I wish you would truly see,

I have made changes,

I am the real me.

The me that you fell for a few years ago.

The me you never wanted to live without.

You are my world, a part of me, the love of my life.

I made mistakes,

That I know,

You taught me to forgive and forget,

And if you try just a little,

I feel we might have the slightest chance.

I feel something when you hug me,

And when you randomly kiss me.

You still sleep next to me.

Last night, you kept touching me and talking in your sleep.

I know you want me to let go,

I wish I could because its what you want.

But something keeps me hanging by this shredded thread.

Something won’t let me let you go, not just yet.

Something deep inside of me.

I fell for you, extremely hard.

It’s never changed.

I didn’t know how to show it fully,

But I tried to change, I told you I was trying, I even requested you help me

You told me no,

We would fine.

And no here we are,

You are letting go.

I am sorry I hurt you

Please let me show you

Just until March,

It’s all I ask.

Continue the slight effort,

You might be surprised.

I admitted my mistakes,

I know I am at fault more than I once thought.

I have been honest; I have tried more than ever.

I changed so much,

Good lord I love you!