What I feel today
Is such deep sorrow
For it isn’t yesterday
It is tomorrow
I am still upset
About what the day had brought
It was arguing and fighting
For it wasn’t what I had sought
We argue, fuss, and fight
I am tired of this
Just about every day or night
I can’t take it any more
For my heart is heavy
With feelings
That shouldn’t be
With love and hate
I begin to wonder
If you are the one
Are you really my true love?
Where is all our fun?
In my thoughts of true happiness
Were days filled with love and fun
Where I am the queen and you the king
What happened to those days, Hun?
I don’t want to be this sad
Or even begin to hate
I am not happy so I wonder
Are you really my true soul mate?
We have had some good times
And also some bad
It didn’t used to be this way
What happened to what we had?
When we were dating
I could see
All the fun and excitement
In your eyes for me
For it is there no more
You are mad at me
And my heart is sore
I can’t take this anymore
My heart is breaking
I hope you see
I am still wondering
Are you the one for me?
We fuss and fight
As I think about this every day
You say love me
And I don’t know what to say
I don’t know if it is really me
That you want in your life
Or the true me that you see
All of this is such strife
My heart is breaking
Oh it is so very true
I am not sure
That I am the one for you
As I write this
The tears flow
What should I do?
Do you want me to go?
It is not right to do this to me
All the time
My heart is hurting
All the time
It is in many pieces on the floor
And you shattered it
And hurt me more
I am sad I hope you know
Once I know we had love
And I believe it was true
But I don’t feel it is there now
Really and truly, do you?
Once I felt so happy and in love
Now all I feel is sadness
For I don’t feel they way I used to
It used to be love for you
I gave you my heart
Once a love so true
And now we are strangers
And I feel so blue
I don’t feel the spark
There used to be
Tell me am I crazy
Or is it just me?
I know you see it too
You are no longer happy with me
I can see it in the way you feel
It’s not like it used to be
Please don’t get mad as you read this
It is just how I feel
As I pour it out for you to read
I know it will take time to heal
Our love was once very happy
Now it is all fussing and fights
And now I believe it is gone
Like all those sleepless nights
Please don’t get mad
For I say this so true
It makes me very sad
To say this to you
I haven’t been happy
In a long, long time
You have broken my heart
Over all this time
You have broken it to pieces
And shatter it even more
Every time you yell and cuss at me
As I walk through the door
My heart gets heavy with pain
What are you going to do me now?
Will we argue, fuss and fight
Or will it be a peaceful night?
I am tired of doing these things
It isn’t how it is supposed to be
When you find your true love
It’s supposed to be happiness and glee
I don’t have that with you
Everything said leads to a fight
I am so tired of this
Because you always have to be right
There is no compromise
And also no sharing
You think you know everything
It is my heart you are tearing
It is still in many pieces on the floor
Full of grief and sorrow
I have nothing left of it anymore
As I wonder what will happen tomorrow?
Kimberly
October 8, 2007