ALONE IN THE DARK
I sit here crying alone in the dark
Wishing, hoping that the man she loves was here to comfort her.
I lie here staring at the time
Wishing, hoping that it would go by faster.
I sit in bed holding my wolfie crying into its fur
Wondering: Why am I such a fuck up?
Why does no one truly loves me?
Why did God keep me on this Earth?
What did I do so wrong to get hurt like this?
Am I being punished for something?
I sit and cry a lot alone in the dark
With the one person she loves so much not really caring
That she is crying.
I lie in bed with nothing else to do
‘Cept wonder does he hate me that much to hurt me like this.
I sit here watching the candles flicker and smelling the incense burning
Trying not to cry no more but can’t
Cause wondering what is going to happen
Is he going to try what was suggested or is he going to blow it off
And hope we forget about it
Does he love me enough to do this or is he just saying he will
Hoping it will blow over like nothing ever happened.
I sit here a lot looking at my ring
Wondering is he going to break the biggest promise to me
Or is he actually going to help and make it come true.
I lie in bed unable to sleep
Some is from being too hurt
Some is from being too afraid to close eyes
Some of it is from the nightmares that come about in dreams
But most of it is don’t want to sleep without him there to make it alright and safe.
His arms around me
His kiss upon my lips or cheek
His comforting words
His overall presence
Makes it safe to sleep even in dreams.
I lie here alone in the dark
Crying and wishing he would understand
That my heart is his to keep I won’t take it back
He has my heart till eternity.
Alone in the dark isn’t a place I want to be
Unless he comforts me to safety.
The pain, the hurt, the crying
Is all because I love him so much
And never want to lose him.
If you ever loved someone so much
You know alone in the dark is only best
When the one you love is there to make everything safe.
AE
24 June 07
