WHY CAN'T YOU JUST BE A MAN & HAVE SOME BALLS & KEEP IT REAL TO ME?! WHY DO I HAVE TO THINK/FEEL THAT YOUR ASS JUST GOT CAUGHT? I'VE ASKED YOU PLENTY OF TIMES, BUT YET YOU TELL ME SOME BS EXCUSE I JUST DON'T GET! SMH NOW I HAVE DOUBTS ON YOU & THERE'S BARELY ANY TRUST SO WTF AM I SUPPOSED TO DO I DON'T HAVE TIME FOR GAMES OF ANY KIND SO WHY CAN'T YOU JUST BE DIFFERENT? I WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND THIS FROM YOU IT'S HURTS TO MUCH TO JUST EVEN THINK IT, FEEL IT, & WRITE IT, BUT I HAVE TO B/C THAT'S WHEN I KNOW THIS IS REALITY I SWEAR WHEN AM I EVER GOING TO HAVE SOME PEACE WITH THIS SHIT?! I DIDN'T THINK THAT I WAS EVER GOING TO BE FEELING THIS WAY ACTUALLY I WAS HOPING THAT I DIDN'T HAVE TOO CUZ I THOUGHT WE'RE OLDER SO THINGS WOULD BE DIFFERENT & BETTER BOY WAS I MISTAKEN I DON'T WANT TO HURT ANYMORE, BUT I KNOW THAT TIME HEALS WOUND I JUST WISH THAT I DIDN'T HAVE TO WAIT SO LONG ONCE AGAIN WHY ME?!......