Desired Poison's blog: "Poem 1"

I looked into your eyes.. as you wrapped your arms around me, I felt so safe, warm, and protected, as I felt your heart beat, when I lay my head on your chest.. You tilted my face upwards, touching my lips with your finger, as you leaned over to give me a kiss.. so passionately, that you took my breath away.. We looked up to the stars in the sky, as I saw a shooting star fly by, I wished this moment would last eternity, as I took your hand.. my aches went away, I knew you were here for me...

At one time I thought that our souls were connected I would have done anything for you In return, I just wanted your love... I think about you, day and night Struggling to go on with my lonely life... Your thoughts are with her, She is not worthy of your time. What about me? I am the one who took care of you Time after time... My heart has split in two, My mind is numb with pain, My soul is blackend, My thoughts clouded... You will never love me, you will never want me, you will forever hate me... Time does go on, but each breath I take reminds me of what I have lost There is no moving on...

This personal hell, that I have felt as I have been waiting here searching for the face of my hidden disgrace - I am broken- - All alone- No one to understand , hold my hand the empty thud of my heart beats aimlessly as I fall apart - I am broken - - I am all alone - - I am of greed - self indulgence it dances upon my thoughts, lust, jealously, luring me, to what I need, crushing my spirit it surrounding me...... The trouble I ask myself why does everyone accuse? where have I gone what have I done I am broken, all alone I am of greed, self indulgence I hear the bells, of my own judgment before me I walk to the unspoken voice calling out to me it speaks the words, that I have heard its token validating that I am finally forgiven I was broken I was of greed but it has spoken I am finally forgiven

Do you ever think about me, Despite your hatred towards My being, my soul... Have you forgotten everything, My voice, my touch, My pressence... I am saddened By your lack of empathy Towards my darkened world... At one time, You were my everything, What was keeping me alive... With you gone, Not caring about me, Hurts more then you will ever know...