why do these fucking nightmares always have to come back?seeing vern at target the other day fucked me up really bad. every time i close my eyes all i can see is the shit he did to me when i was little.i dont have anyone to talk to. ive been alone for the past couple days and all i really want is to not be alone.what makes men think that they have a right to hurt little girls or girls in general?how can people be so hurtful?why wont this just go away?my dreams are horrible and i cant get his fucking face out of my head. you disgust me so much.i just dont want to feel anything anymore.i keep running in my dream and i dont get anywhere except right in his path and everytime it ends the same. he wins and i lose. i lose everything.i lose my mind and my happiness each time i close my eyes and i dont want to hurt like this anymore but i dont know what can help.i wish to god i did or that someone did.
