you know its amazing how many thoughts run through your head at 4:30 in the morning when i should be sleeping. instead im online just playin around and cant get some things off my mind. so im gonna lay it out here and maybe someone will notice. first off, its amazing how in the blink of an eye your whole life can change. so many different things in this game we call life can happen. we dont ever notice the small things in life that make us happy. we dont ever even notice the small things people that are close to us do for us everyday. its the simple things in life we need to keep us happy. its just insane how we dont notice these things until their gone. once their not there anymore thats when we realize how much we take for granted everyday of our lives with each breath we take. no matter how often those things are there we just look past it like it doesnt matter. and whats also crazy is how people can just use other people and not even care. its best to be honest and let them know how your feeling or whats on your mind. through the past few months ive learned that communication is the most important thing to have. without communication you risk losing it all. ive learned this from experience. but in the end when you realize how bad youve messed up and theres no turning back your in to deep to fix things and left alone struggling to answer questions unasked. then your left by yourself wondering why you had to screw up so much and how you lost everything you ever wanted because of fear. just remember in the end the truth will set you free. i know all this because a lack of communication has ruined what i enjoyed most. i screwed up bad and theres no way i can ever fix it. now im left on the sidelines with so many things running through my head idk what to say or do anymore. but like they say everything happens for a reason. life goes on. you gotta learn from your mistakes and dont do them again. for the person i hurt, even though i know you dont like this im sorry. and you should know who you are. well thats all for tonight. thanks for the time. and good night.
