Tuesday, June 13, 2006
My personality disorders
Disorder Rating
Paranoid: Moderate
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Low
Antisocial: Moderate
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: Low
Dependent: Low
Obsessive-Compulsive: Moderate
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Sunday, May 07, 2006
People that piss me off too
Current mood: Pissed Off
Category: Pissed Off Romance and Relationships
Something that really gets me is that I will always listen to a "friend" that is having a problem with something or is troubled even taking their calls at times when I have alot going on in my life. But when I am feeling down and bothered by things then it seems like these same people desert me and that their problems are way too important that they can't give me a minute of their time.
Something else that gets me is people here on myspace that think that they are too or whatever is on their selfcentered minds that they can't give a simple response. I try to respond to everyone that I don't figure is linking me to a porn site or some other money making scheme. I really don't get why it is so hard for someone to give a simple reply to a nonpersonal question. I suppose a simple fuckem would be in order.
I could go on with a fuck you list right now and to tell you the truth I am pretty much in the mood for it but I could use a nap. Maybe then I will be in a better mood. Fucking people can be so selfcentered sometimes, caught up so much in their own bullshit that nothing else in the world exists in their self-absorbed minds.
Currently listening :
Break the Cycle
By Staind
Release date: By 22 May, 2001
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Monday, April 24, 2006
Talk Radio
Current mood: annoyed
Category: Music
I don't know about you all but I hate those stupid morning radio shows like those two idiots "Bob and Tom". When I turn on the radio on my way home (I work nights) or even more so when I go TO work in the morning I don't want to hear people cackeling and laughing at their own jokes...I want to hear music! I thought that was what AM radio was for, so that these mindless idiots could talk about nothing and make fun of handicapped people and whatnot. It just puts me in the mindset that I want to strangle somebody even before I get to work. I am thankful that Im not driving stuck in traffic somewhere and having to listen to this crap. I'm not real certain WHO does like it or listen to it, I guess someone does or they wouldnt be on the air. I just really hate the shit and I have a hell of a time finding a station that doesnt have it. Now I know why Satellite Radio has become so popular!
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Tuesday, April 11, 2006
Internet Relationships
Current mood: awake
Category: Romance and Relationships
When I first got divorced it was kinda hard to get back into the swing of dating and such so I did all the internet stuff with the dating sites and all without much luck really. I still am pretty apprehensive at any dating site because the results I got were so poor. Seemed I put a lot of time and energy into something that rarely, if ever paid off. I also spent a lot of time in chatrooms because I was so bored and lonely and pretty bummed about my divorce that I spent a lot of time in a divorce chatroom bitching about my ex and talking to others about how they were dealing with it.
I got pretty addicted to chatrooms after that. While I was married I rarely got to use the internet because my exwife thought that I would find some girl and run off with her or something. So needless to say I NEVER was in a chatroom until my divorce or separation anyway. I found that there was a lot of freedom in being in a chatroom with a bunch of people that I didnt know or anything and I would find someone to talk to and some of them I would talk to on a regular basis like most everyday. Over a period of time I would get the nerve to get their phone number or something and talk to them. Eventually I figured out that it was actually pretty easy to get dates. I was pretty amazed that most the people in chatrooms were actually pretty lonely people and all there for the same things, companionship and/or sex.
But there were several people that I had grown to appreciate and some of them I still chat with today. I have met quite a few women from the internet and most all of them from chat rooms. I have had some really interesting experiences, I dated this one lady one time and she talked me into seeing her again because I had pretty much decided that she wasn't my type (actually I thought she was nuts). Turned out that she became psycho on me and it has been three years and she still calls me and messages me.
For the most part my experiences have been fairly positive, I have met some interesting and fun women and still talk to a good part of them (even the psycho). I have been taken the wrong way on here many many times and accused of being a psycho myself, but that was partly because my screename was psychodave. It is pretty funny how people can become so sensitive to things in chat, of all the places not to take things very seriously I am surprised at how many people do. It isnt a place for those with thin skin.
I'm not sure what my point is here, but I can say that my experience with meeting women on the internet has been for the most part a good thing. I learned to keep an openmind when meeting them for the first time, it is kinda like a blind date and people will misrepresent themselves or at the least will sometimes try to talk up their good qualities so that the ones that arent so good wont look so bad. One thing to remember is that there is a reason that they are looking on the internet and it isnt because they are lonely supermodels that are well adjusted. Not that everyone looking on here is a big ugly overweight unemployed loser, but all of us have our bad qualities that we dont put out on front street.
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Monday, April 10, 2006
People
Current mood: confused
Category: Romance and Relationships
Kinda funny how we view things sometimes, I know for the most part we judge others by their actions and ourselves by our intentions. I try to keep an openmind in that respect and try to understand why someone does something, but I'm not always successful at it. I think for the most part all of us are pretty self-centered and do things with our own benefit in mind even though we try to help our fellows out it is done for the most part at our convenience.
Relationships with the opposite sex are at best very challenging or at least to me it is and I have been at it for quite a while. I have found myself very puzzled many times and hurt more than a few.
I got into a situation recently where I got more involved with someone than I had initially intended and she was also involved with someone else. It came to a point where she had to make a decision and chose to be with the other guy.
Funny part of it is that I am still pretty close to her because we share a lot of common interests and we also care about each other pretty deeply, but she still wants to stay with this other guy. I am cool with it for now, but what I think is funny is the fact that she becomes jealous when I talk about another woman or talk on the phone, stuff like that. But yet, I know when she is with this other guy and I am supposed to be ok with it and I am for the most part.
It's kindof a "cake and eat it too" situation with her but I can't really judge her for it because I can't say that I wouldn't do the same thing if I was in that situation. I'm sure I have been in the past, just feels uncomfortable being the "other" party.
Seems I get into these bad situations a lot and it seems to me that it usually turns out bad for "me". Another thing to add to the "pisses me off" list. I really have a hard time with relationships, they never seem to last very long. I have had one relationship that lasted over a year and that was my marriage that lasted 9 yrs and I think a lot of the reason that we stayed together so long was because we were sparing making two other people miserable.
I guess there isnt any real point to my blog here other than people even at their best are usually pretty self-centered in my opinion. I know that I can say that for me because it's my blog and I'll say what I want to
