Well i was just sitting here...thinking...
I thought of how people socialize...
And right now...i am going through picking up the peices after ending (I ended it for good reasons) a very long on and off again relationship....
Well I have been going at it the wrong way...
I am getting back into my freinds, on the days I am not its family...
But, But, but....
I noticed how, even tho i leave for long periods of time from freinds...
Its like once i get back in there...its like i never left...
Im right back where i was when i left...
Its the same people...the same parties...the same drama...all over again...
Kind of makes you wonder if you should just sit at home..and just be lonely:(
Honestly...half the people out there doing all the partying and living it up....they go home to nothing..no one...thier lives...alone...
I dont know maybe im being sadistic..or just plain downer today...
but im starting to feel it all over again...
Same shit i felt back then...or everytime i end up out on the scene...or even dating....
Im alone once more....
haha you guys reading this prolly think..dayem shes needy...lol...
I admit...
Yes i have become dependant on the other form of life that was there beside me..if not in presence ..then at least in mind....
But oh well..
sa la sa la...(if thats how its spelled...)
what will be will be...
