since the first one is always crappy that is the namme of it.i read alot of the things written on here and my heart and soul goes out to those that feel the same as i do i know its a black place and seems no return but it is somewhere we just have to hold together and be there and we will makeit through it.Then there are some that just want you to feel sorry for them or think they are something but they are the ones who are really in our shoes.
