Zero Edge's blog: "Penny for your Thoughts?"

This is who I am. I have my own beliefs. It's what I've learned growing up in a world where love is thrown away every single day. I am morally challenged and I find it a good thing actually. If I keep getting knocked down I realize that if we fall we must learn to rise.
I have a theory in which I say there are three c's. You have to be calm, cool and collected.

• If you are calm then know that you are aware of what you are doing no matter how tough the situation is.
• The cool is you never turn to violence even if the person had hurt you. Know that they are human as well. It sounds pacifistic and chickenish but the good guys that had not retaliated were the ones who made the biggest difference out there.
• Collected are the thoughts that you keep and even no matter how awkward or clumsy the situation gets there's always something to follow up in your head. Life is that unplanned and unpaid adventure you book one and you might not end up where you want to but if you have something that came along with it then at least you were prepared in some way.

In a relationship, I think this is what I believe are the most important things in love.

1. A girl's smile is always important. That's 50% of being in a relationship if you can keep a smile like that then you know it's there.
2. The other 50 is the ways you could make it out that smile like you're true to her, original and you know her well enough that reciprocity is equal.
3. Finally remember that love is the unconditional feeling that you could never break or hurt for it's not supposed to make you feel that instead it's like truth. It's supposed to make you feel alive and free. Anything else isn't love it's what we have to understand.
4. Always remember the heart's the hardest muscle but it's also the weakest since because by the end of the day you would love to hold onto it because you would say that you needed someone to hold you.
5. Also, remember that even in your heart always remember the spot that's there for you when you fall back down so that when you break down you won't feel as broken as ever because you know there's solace and peace in there.
6. As my uncle would say, "If she sees me as a boy and you give yourself time to let her recognize you would be her man someday then look at you and say you're her man then she will be your mrs. right."

These all sounds farfetched but put it in your perspective and look closely in the mirror.

If only I could then I would do this with her: Drive out in that special place called middle of nowhere with her and we'd do the craziest things in there because no one is there to stop us. Just be outside holding hands thinking of what we could do and let it all out. Let it all out in the craziest of all things that the world would even stop us from doing because we live the fullest of all the fools and cry out that there’s no time for tomorrow but today. Drive ourselves into deep madness called real world and try to pose ourselves like “the society” then throw it all away by the end of the day because we were what we were and we chose it to be that way forever. Cuddle and make out for we love each other like butter that is spread thoroughly into bread making sure that we get every inch of each slice in this state of mind forever.

I don't enjoy the fact or the idea of looking at women in their outside appearance rather it's the inside that counts. (You know the saying: "Looks can be deceiving but no matter a girl is a girl because she is what she is and she'll always be the girl that will be there for anyone to love and learn about.) Apparently in my opinion or say that man like us forgot that there's a very important part found in between and buried deep inside a woman's body. A heart. I think some of us have forgotten that therein lays the problem of getting a good relationship. A good relationship that has been thought to be dead isn't really dead rather it's just still there lying in a dormant position. I think that's the reason why a couple of my friends in school forgot the idea of just getting a girlfriend and loving for what she is than not. I try to tell them but some listened others continued to lecher around luxuriously but to no avail they don't have a girlfriend. (In which I am happy for because they will never learn.) I learned that no matter what, one must realize that a girl has a heart that will always radiate in full red because their love is but of a unique and true one.

This thought that I came up and wrote was actually written about past five in the morning... I was just logging out of my video game when I told this girl about what I thought of her for I knew her in real life so: The sands that flow are called time but when time decides to flow in another way then it goes with the water because it slows the sand down and controls it. In short… When people think that everyone moves too fast they come across to someone…someone that slows them down that someone will become their own water to flow with until they reach the end of time.

For the past couple of months, exactly about 3 months my parents and oldest brother has been telling me to apply for college. I am a senior highschool and I do want to go to college seriously. It's my next challenge out there after highschool. It's a complete resolution that I need to go there and get my degree and such. I tell my parents that I want to study out of state but then again they're telling me that I should either stay here or go home back in the Philippines(where I came from). So how am I supposed to face that resolution if they would limit as to where I am going for college. I also am aware of the fact that I need to go get my credentials fixed. Truth is even though I am performing mediocre I can rise above from it and get beyond or on par with my other friends that have more than 4.5GPA. As for SAT I got it under controlled as to where my oldest is assuming that I might Christmas Tree or even Crystal Ball it. I know that the word reviewing for SAT doesn't go well because I know that I'll just prepare not review for it. None of that stuff is accumulative from the review so rather I would prepare it as much as possible. Whoo, college, just taking these steps into going it I will have to work my ass for it to get in and earn it.

Life is not based on scripts it's made from your heart and soul and the way you express it too.
A rose is a rose as to where it displays that you are one but to me a rose is but of a flower. To me, you are the bouquet that is so grand and elegant that even arranged or not you show me how many ways I can remember you with each scent that you carry around.