ever get the feeling that no matter how much you do for someone it just isnt enough? How sometimes you feel like just NOT caring anymore...I cant help feeling that way right now.I know its wrong to live this way, but what can i do.I cant communicate..i try and it feels like im talking to a brick wall.Im tired of empty promises of change, but yet i dont do anything to help the situation.Im running ragged no energy at all no hapiness no love no feeling at all.Ive been told to just hang in there..but what am i hanging on to?A love that i know might not be there anymore..He says he cares..he says hes in love..but how does he know..what if what he thinks is love is lust..maybe hes just comfortable with the way things are and doesnt want it to change..or maybe he just doesnt care at all. which is it? i will probably never know.Im tired of waiting im tired of trying im just plain tired.HELP..seems like help may never come..ill just be stuck in this everlasting circle of unhappiness for the rest of my days.One bright point in my life.CHLOE RAE REYNOLDS..she is my reason for living.Shes the reason i wake up in the morning the reason i have a smile on my face shes my everything she is my sunshine with out her my skys are gray(yeah so i stole the line)..I want to start over.But how do you start over after all this time.How do you go on like it never happened?How do u pick up after such a change?I dont know the answer..maybe thats why i stay.or maybe its because my names on the lease and i still have 12 months to go?Who knows?DEFINATLY not me.
