TheAmbassadorOfRomanceInVenus's blog: "Dripping Minds"

There has got to be something better than this! You decieving .... I can't think, i can't sleep, i'm wasteing time. I've been so blind, i should of known better .... But, i thought you were the one, all i wanted was, trust, understanding and tender hands. I always thought that you would be kind but fate has done me wrong, for here we are, stuck together with no way out .... I've tried so hard to keep our dreams alive but do dreams really come true? Or do they come undone? I thought you were the sweetest gift a beacon in my life, but your light is not that strong, and this dark storm that threatens to drown me, I sail upon it constantly .... Was i put here on Earth just to be criticised? Never to complain, never to be asked what i like? Sometimes i think Man is still stone age! I wash, i clean, i cook, look after the kids even go out chopping wood and gathering sticks and all he can do is moan all day .... How about we reverse the roles, I'll sit back with my beer and football, and when you are done, I'll have my three course meal. I've walked so long in these empty rooms looking for happiness in our home, But now i feel like walking in the rain, i just can't handle all this pain, finding it so hard, But what can i do? .... Walking down the highway, i watch the trucks roll by. I've lost my appetite for this side of life, so i might jump out and take a ride. I want to leave this pain and pass for something new, bring this heartache to an end .... For i have cried an ocean of salty tears so torn apart by love, struggled through so many years, dying for a lover's touch. But you don't touch me anymore, you never say the words "I love you" .... You just sit behind your paper , we don't even talk anymore, not the way we used to, and your silence cuts like a razor. when ever i reach out to hold you, you turn away, what am i supposed to do? I wish you could hold me in your arms deep. I want to feel you breathing on my skin, but we fell out of love, can we fall back in? You used to make me feel like someone, Oh God how i miss those days! Tell me "where did we go wrong?" My tears rise up like a tide to the moon, and when i cry, it only means i want you closer, I need your hand... touch me in this darkness, I want to feel the sunlight break through .... As i look back, i can see it all so clearly now. I'm heading down the wrong way, on a one-way track. There must be a million choices that a fool could take, And this fool took everyone, and never hit the breaks. Now i'm lying in the rubble, spending all my time, waiting for a second chance, waiting for a break, that would make this all ok. But there is always some reason to feel not good enough, and it's hard at the end of the day .... I need some release let me be empty, and maybe, just maybe, I will find peace tonight! For i'm going to say "goodbye" like an eagle i will fly. I'll fly away from here, far away from this dark cold exisitance, and the endlessness that i fear. There are vultures and thieves at my back, and this storm keeps on twisting, and you keep on building lies decieving .... I need some distraction, oh beautiful release. Let the memories seep from my veins. Let me be empty, in the arms of an angel. And the trucks keep on rolling by .... "oh sweet angel... I come to you exhausted by my struggle. I come to you at the end of my wits, exhausted from trying so hard. I am finished, i surrender. I place this battle in your radient hands, for this grief that floods my heart, has over whelmed me .... This ocean of stormy sorrow, has swamped my tiny craft, and has plunged me into the deepest of depths. This sea of prescent sorrows, seems to be fed as well, by rivers of old grief, sorrows never fully mourned. Sometimes my life seems made of loss as this is one such time. I feel the emptiness. The loss of effort, the end of the struggle. Please hold me, Wrap around me, your mighty wings. Be with me in this darkness, For i am so little,and this sorrow, is anormous. Bring me stillness from this storm, and sing me the peace of Heaven".