I am beginning to feel that the Gods have cursed my life, everywhere I turn, every time I begin to feel a small measure of joy. Something occurs to damage that or totally destroy it.
What in my past has caused this, I know that we pay for and learn from past mistakes on this plane. But, why in the infinite wisdom of the Gods, must it always affect someone else as well?
The pains I suffer should be mine and mine alone to face, no one else.
I have recently, without choosing to, caused great pain in someone very dear to me. Someone who has touched me deeply and shown me things that have allowed me for the first time to experience a more enriched view of life.
My life has always been so very dark and for once I could see the potential of finding true happiness, now I grow concerned because so many causative factors are working to destroy that.
I pray the Gods are just testing our resolve, but it is all to familiar to me.
I hope the answer comes soon, I am not sure I can bare this pain again.
