TACTICAL TRENCH's blog: "Overdosing It"

Restless mind, I am afraid,
Warning signs are all over, where to turn to?
No one understands. No one knows.

Everyday life is twisted by my stress,
My pain and misery makes me go insane.

Constantly uptight, the world is against me,
Bitch about this, complain about that.

I wonder why you can't see what I see,
You never seen the pain, you never wanted to die.

I need something, I need it now.
It is time for relief. I can't take the torment another moment.

This hate has built up. I'm about to explode.
Just watch me, here I go you wuss.

I take one. And another one. And another one.
Can I feel it yet? Yeah! Pop another one.

It's fun to play with pills. I wonder how many I can go?
Risking death is what I live for. Everybody's gotta die sometime.

The sensation is great. 5 minutes, good. 10 minutes better.
I'm grinding my teeth. All my problems have seemed to go away!

It must stay this way forever. I must keep taking them one by one.
I don't want to leave this world but I feel so good!

Deeper and deeper i go into the realm of nonexistence.
Is this a dream? Is this a thought? Is this a memory?

I feel good. This is great. Where am I?
How did I get here? Something about this is wrong.

Don't resist. No need to.
Goodbye. No more worries.

I don't want to come down off this. I'm happy.
Let me mix it with some of these.

Oh yes, I'm drizzling off even better now.
I don't want to leave this place.

This is my life, leave me alone.
I will do what I want with it.

I'm seeing the darkness, the shadows, the demons,
I feel like I am in danger. Uh oh.

Too late for repentance. I can't be redeemed.
I can't breathe. I'm suffocating.

I'm going into a spell deeper than hell.
Since I am in pain, I like to rebel.

One minute I'm cold, the next I'm heat.
Wider and wider my eyes get.
Its too deep now, its gone, its over.

No more problems, no more stress,
I'm done with this place. No need for resistance.
I refuse to stay alive. I'm lucky if I survive.
I refuse to live anymore on this forsaken earth.

I could care less what you think of me.
Let me go, let me die in peace in my last moment.

And you wonder why roses die. Leave Me Alone.