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LOVE IS THE RISK A WOMAN WOULD TAKE,BY WALKING OUT OF ONE LIFE INTO ANOTHER CARRYING ONLY A SUITCASE,AND LEAVING WHAT SHE KNEW BEHIND. I GUESS MY REALITY GAVE ME A BIG JOLT.WHAT WOULD MY LIFE BE LIKE IF I DIDN’T TRAVEL THE ROADS I DID.WHERE WOULD I BE IF JOURNEYS WEREN’T TAKEN.GOD TOLD ME ONCE TO BE HAPPY,AND SOMEWHERES I ASK MYSELF WHY SHOULD I BE.WHY DO I HAVE TO CARRY A SMILE WHEN I DON’T FEEL LIKE SMILING.I AM MORE HAPPY WHEN I DON’T LOOK FOR HAPPINESS.THAT WAY I DON’T FEEL BAD WHEN I CAN’T FIND IT.WHERE DO PEOPLE GET OFF SAYING YOU HAVE TO BE HAPPY,STRONG OR EVEN LOVED.IT IS EMOTIONS FEEELING SET BY SOCIETY.I DON’T HAVE TO BE HAPPY 24/7.NOR DO I HAVE TO BE LOVED FOR ETERNITY.THAT IS PUTTING A DAMPER ON THINGS WHEN IT DOESN’T HAPPEN.THEN YOU ARE DISAPPOINTED.IT GOES WITH THAT OLD CLICHÉ,IF IT IS MEANT TO BE.THEN IT WILL HAPPEN.
FOR I AM A WOMAN OF MY WORDS.I NEVER SAY ANYTHING I DON’T MEAN.AND I SAY EXACTLY WHAT I DO MEAN.I MAKE NO PROMISES,THAT I CAN’T CARRY OUT,AND IF I CAN’T THEN I DON’T MAKE THEM.EVERYTHING HAS A LEVEL GROUND.IF YOU EXPECT FROM ME TO LOVE ,CHERISH AND HONOR,THEN I EXPECT THE SAME. MY WORD A WORD OF HONOR.FOR I AM TRULY A LADY.
I SET HERE AND I LOOKED UPON CANADA.I HAD GIVEN SO MUCH OF MYSELF TO THAT BEAUTIFUL LAND.BUT,FOUGHT TO GET BACK TO MY MOTHER LAND.I CRIED TIL I COULDN’T CRY NO MORE.GIVING MY ALL,MY EVERYTHING,AND IT BIT ME IN THE BUTT,AND IT IS NOW A TIME,I WISHED NEVER HAPPEN.CAN’T REGRET JUST WISHED I HAD NEVER BEEEN THERE,AT THAT POINT OF TIME.
IN ABOUT FIVE DAYS,MY LIFE WILL TAKE A NEW TWIST OF UNCERTANITIES.I DON’T KNOW WHERE IT WILL GO,HOPEFULLY FOR THE BEST.I CAN ONLY TAKE ONE DAY AT A TIME.HOPING THAT WHEN MY END HAS COME,I LIVED LIFE MY WAY.I CAN’T SAY THAT IS ALL GOING TO BE ROSES,WITHOUT THORNS.NOT ME TO SAY.IT IS GOD’S WILL.BUT I SURE HOPE, THAT THIS TIME I GOT IT RIGHT.I AM TIRED,EXHAUSTED FROM THE BROKEN PROMISES.THE SHATTERED DREAMS.I AM WEAK FROM THE MAYBES,AND HUNGRY FOR THE PEACE.I AM THIRSTY FOR THE DEISRES TO BE REAL,AND THE WORDS SPOKEN BECOME REALITY.I HAVE HAD ENOUGH.I THINK AT SOME POINTS OF TIME WE ALL DO.I JUST WANT TO LIVE ONE DREAM,ONE LITTLE DREAM BEFORE I DIE.
THE DAY I WALKED WITH GOD,UPON THE WHITE SANDS,HE GAVE ME BACK MY LIFE.SINCE THAT DAY I HAVE BEEN SEARCHING FOR SOMETHING,AND I FEEL ME GETTING CLOSER.BUT I ALSO KNOW,THAT THE DAY,THAT IT IS FOUND,I WILL CLOSE MY EYES.FOREVER.
I HAVE LOVED AND FOUND MY TRUE LOVE.NOW IT IS TIME FOR MY TRUE LOVE TO FIND ME.ALL HE HAS TO DO HIS BRING ME HOME.
