Ok you all i know that this isn't the type of thing that you want to read in here but i am someone that has noone to talk to.
it starts in the year of 1983,Dec.24.
well every one in my family was meeting at my house for christmas. every one but my aunt and grandmother had made it there. it was about 1:30 pm and we got a phone call from the state police.
they said that they had some very bad news to tell us. i just happen to be the one that answered the phone too. they said that there was a very bad wreck and my aunt and grandmother was involved.they were about 10 min. from the house. i and my mother went to where the wreck was to get them but there was noone to get...when we got there. there was a cole truck sitting on top of my aunts car and she was under the wheels. my grand mother was throwen from the car.i tryed to get to her but noone would let me near the car.
her and i had just got into a big fight on the phone 45 min before and i never got to say i was sorry or that i loved her. i wasn't even given the chance to say goodby.
yes someone else has done the same thing that i am doing but you see i thought that i was the only one on CT that was in this mood and trying to deal with something like this.
i sit all the time crying woundering if she is still mad at me and thinking that i was the reason she wasn't here anymore. and when this day comes all i want is to have her here with me for christmas. and i lock myself in my room and cry all day and night. i don't want anyone feeling sorry for me or pitting me. just like the other person i just want you to think about what the true meaning of christmas is to you....it's not the things you get or give. the money that you spend or how much is spent on you....it is who you love that you have around you and in your heart....so please think about your loved ones not what they give or get.....PLEASE...because you will never know the true meaning of christmas untill that 1 person is not there to be with you today and tomarrow.
MARRY CHRISTMAS EVERY ONE
